Dropping subtle hints?

[Sslsh]

Anyone drops subtle hints to their parents/loved ones about their wish to go? I've started talking to my mom about what she would do if I were to disappear, and that I wouldn't want her to come look for me. I'm in no way wanting her to "help me". It's just that when I successfully execute my plan, my mom should have a deja vu atleast about how I used to talk about it and that it was not something I did spontaneously.

 

[ClownMe]

i flat out told my mum i wanted to kill myself and she didnt even care lol

 

[Rae82]

My partner knows that I can't live how I currently am health wise. Everyone seems to think you should just soldier on when you're suffering but it's easy to say when you're healthy and everything is okay.

 

[Huntfish34]

I do every now and then but I try to be careful about it and not say Too much.

 

[BottomlessPit]

I could never do that, I would be too worried that they could get wind of my plans and meddle with my attempt. I think my weird behavior over the years will be enough to make them have some realizations in retrospect. Things like isolating behavior, being extremely closed off, etc.

 

[boc]

I try not to drop hints, as everyone in my life would be vehemently opposed. Like BottomlessPit mentioned, these could also interfere with your ability to execute your plans. But the inability to talk about the issue is also very isolating. That's why I really appreciate SS. But I do wish I could talk to someone other than my therapist about my plans.

It also depends on one's reasons to CTB. If someone has a debilitating illness or condition, then I think it could definitely be talked about openly with others without judgement.

 

[whywhywhy]

Anyone drops subtle hints to their parents/loved ones about their wish to go? I've started talking to my mom about what she would do if I were to disappear, and that I wouldn't want her to come look for me. I'm in no way wanting her to "help me". It's just that when I successfully execute my plan, my mom should have a deja vu atleast about how I used to talk about it and that it was not something I did spontaneously.

I dont think you need to drop hints specially because you can literally write in a note that it wasnt an impulsive decision. I for one try not to make them know. If people know you are suicidal it will become much harder to ctb if you ever want and you will lose your chance to make it look like an accident as well

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I will never do this. It is why I would take my time to write a detailed note explaining everything. If others knew anything they would try to save me and do everything in their power to stop it, as that is what us humans are naturally programmed to do. I wish euthanasia was legal where I lived and I could get accepted into it, then my family would know in advance and I would be able to leave peacefully without the secrecy.

 

[noname223]

I wanted them to know why I want to go. Everyone knows that there is probably no other solution for me than suicide. My parents don't want to believe that. They deceive themselves. My friends understand my wish.
No sure if this ruin my plan. But sooner or latter I will ctb. I am afraid of my next mental breakdown. I hope my plans would work out. Not fully sure. I will try to hid my plans when my next breakdown comes. Until then they will forget the things they already know I assume.