drafting note. feeling evil.

[nembutal]

there are a lot of things left unsaid between me and those who have hurt me in the past. i have urges to include a paragraph about feeling conned, feeling abandoned, feeling hopeless, but the thought makes me feel evil. i don't want to be seen as a manic borderline bitch, but i'd also like my Full Truth to get out there somehow. at the end of the day it won't matter who views me how, as i'll hopefully find a reliable method and be too dead to worry about it, but my letter means a whole lot to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Some people really are so cruel and to me it's terrible how many people treat others. I understand how suicide letters can be important as they can be a form of closure. I also wish for a reliable way to exit. Suicide really shouldn't be this difficult. I hope that you find freedom from your suffering.