Venting don't want to think

[kinzokukae]

i fucking despise thinking. i hate it. i hate not being able to control what i think about. no, brain, i don't want to think about all the responsibilities i'll have soon, nor do i even want to think about the future. no, i don't want to think about if i don't successfully ctb soon enough. can't i just turn it off? everything? i didn't ask for this.
you know what sucks? that my friends wouldn't get it. i want, so badly, to tell them about how sometimes i just crouch down, thinking. how sometimes i'll lay on the floor for minutes, even hours, desperately trying to see static. the floor's comfortable, anyway. 'distract yourself!' uh huh. sure. you try telling your brain to stop thinking. tell me how that works out for you.

 

[Sugar_Cookie21]

i feel the same way, my brain don't stop, i can't supply my thoughts, if i could i'll sleep 20 hours per day, but i barely sleep because of that, the only way to cope with it for me is if i'm constatly listening to music, playing video games or jerking off