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Rd13

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Nov 2, 2021
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I feel I don't want to die when I listen to music. Even when songs are depressing. Still the thought of my reality remains in my head, leaving my plan to kill myself unchanged. Anyone finds the same?
 
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Unicornsrnot4dislife

Not meant for this world…….
Nov 12, 2021
128
I can agree with you to some extent. I find some songs resonate to my life and current situation. When I listen to them I feel something internally. The thoughts remains though same as you.
 
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Crimsonghost3

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Nov 14, 2021
78
Music is all I have left and I can't listen to it most the time anymore unfortunately. I guess it can make me want to die less but not really
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,626
No. It used to make me feel a bit better years ago, but now I do not enjoy anything. Listening to music with headphones also makes tinnitus worse for me. Overall there is nothing that makes me want to die less, my life is constant suffering.
 
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drune11

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Mar 26, 2021
94
Depends on the song - some make me fantasize about the moments I'd be drifting into the void of nothingness. Some just make think about my hopelessness.
 
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obliviousatbest

obliviousatbest

atrophy
Nov 10, 2021
67
Chopin is heaven for the melancholy soul <3
 
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it's_all_a_game

I remember...death in the afternoon...
Nov 7, 2020
356
If it weren't for the U. K.'s new wave/synth-pop golden age between 1977 to 1986, I would be long gone.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
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Depends on the music, tbh.
 
Ch92921

Ch92921

The call of the void
Dec 29, 2018
909
No even more motivated
 
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finalexit

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Jan 24, 2021
84
Music can definitely be a drug, at times makes life feel like it could almost have some meaning. Don't know if it's made me want to die less but it can help me feel emotions when I'm numb or occasionally alleviate anxiety/angst. Depending on the song and moment, it's sometimes been the only thing that's made me feel understood, even just sonically. There are times when all songs sound annoying or don't make me feel anything as well. I also record music and tend to obsess and overexpose myself to whatever I'm working on and it torments me and starts all sounding the same. Often drives me to suicidal fixations more lol. Might be related to my OCD
 
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deathgripsme

deathgripsme

There is another world
Oct 26, 2021
117
If it weren't for the U. K.'s new wave/synth-pop golden age between 1977 to 1986, I would be long gone.
I just thought of Temptation by New Order when I read this
 
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it's_all_a_game

I remember...death in the afternoon...
Nov 7, 2020
356
I just thought of Temptation by New Order when I read this
I don't like New Order that much lol...as for bands that are helping me right now, it's mostly Simple Minds these days.
 
Ch92921

Ch92921

The call of the void
Dec 29, 2018
909
In my case it make me even more agressive nd psychotic
 
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deathgripsme

deathgripsme

There is another world
Oct 26, 2021
117
I don't like New Order that much lol...as for bands that are helping me right now, it's mostly Simple Minds these days.
Whatever helps you in this miserable world
 
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