Does it ever bother you seeing people having a great life?

[CentreMid]

It does to an extent, though it feels more like self-hate than any real bitterness towards the other person. I feel like I'm simply not doing enough and often have to remind myself that, regardless of how well one does in life, we're all just sacks of meat in the end, and that the choices we make are more meaningful than the outcome.

On a slightly related note, sometimes I actually pity those who are having a good time, as all good things come to an end. I often wonder how long their joy will last, or what might take it away (not that I actively want anything bad to happen to those who are happy, of course. that would be cruel). Maybe this is just a "me" thing, but I tend to distrust any kind of good that happens nowadays.

 

[Leonard_Bangley39]

Yes, it's why i don't talk to my sisters as much anymore

 

[betternever2havbeen]

No because I don't want anyone else's life either. I find life completely boring, unfulfilling, tragic. I wonder how they can get so much out of it and why I'm not like that. I think I was just born an unhappy person. What's even a great life anyway? Marriage and kids and domestic drudgery?

 

[fadedghost]

After years of being told "it gets better" and it never getting "better"… watching people living nicer, happier lives than you…

Do you ever just feel bitter? Ever wonder why it was that you got the short end of the stick??

yes

 

[thelostautistic]

I don't feel bitter towards other people but I do feel envious. Seeing other people live the life I want makes me feel sad and frustrated about my own situation. It's not to say that I can't have a good life too but life itself is just more challenging for me and that's hard to deal with.

 

[thehorizons]

Yes, but I was worked up about it for less valid and petty reasons (e.g. jealous about someone being in a relationship). Now, with more valid reasons (e.g. benzo-induced neurological dysfunction and skin cancer) and my dreams being objectively shattered, I feel kind of at peace with it.

It's like I've come to the acceptance that their happiness is part of their narrative and it's not mine. Plus, I feel like it wouldn't matter when I'm gone cause I'll be out of the game and they can continue on playing. I used to be upset about their happiness because I was in the game, but if I'll be opting out then it doesn't really matter.

 

[meatballlover]

Personally insanely jealous

 

[itsgone2]

I can't understand it. I no longer have any idea how to form that kind of life.
I know a number of people that are well off and happy. They worked for it. Made their kids work for it.
I thought I was doing the same but no not even close. That bothers me. Only understanding at the end.

 

[DeathByBananabread]

I get jealous easily- I get over it eventually. I find the biggest issue is the gap it puts between me & others- I'm too privileged to relate to most pains & yet too bereft of experiences, skill & joy to share with others or offer advice. I end up having nothing to say but depressing things or the most generic things.

 

[Off_Switch]

If they're good people, not at all. It's the ones that are horrible and still get to live good lives that really get under my skin.

 

[ohsosleepy]

Sometimes I catch myself thinking things along the lines of hate, but what I'm really feeling is jealousy. I don't truly resent anyone for getting to live the life I can only dream of. I just so desperately wish that could be me too.

 

[redsendtend]

After years of being told "it gets better" and it never getting "better"… watching people living nicer, happier lives than you…

Do you ever just feel bitter? Ever wonder why it was that you got the short end of the stick??

Ignorance is bliss.

People choose to be conscious and suffer or sever their consciousness and enjoy pleasure/'life'.

Misunderstanding is immense due to inexperience.

 

[unloveable27]

Yes I hate seeing couples and wish they would split up

 

[gardenhouse]

It's more like why does it happen to me? Why not someone else kind of thought.