Does CTB date matters to you?

[Homecoming]

For those people who are 100% sure will CTB.

Do you want to do it on the exact date or impulsively (as soon as you get the CTB stuff)?

 

[Rae82]

No exact date just the earliest I can when everything (hopefully) arrives.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I would ctb impulsively, when I reach the point of desperation and cannot take any more. I feel like if there was a planned date, I would struggle with the survival instinct.

 

[Sans]

I was going to do it on my birthday. But ultimately decided against it because I didn't have the means to.

 

[Rae82]

No exact date just the earliest I can when everything (hopefully) arrives.

Just need to get past the SI and my fear of vomiting which is so irrational when you're taking your life to think it's not going to be a little unpleasant at the very least.

 

[deathisnear]

It can create stress. I have planned and missed a ctb date and it haunts me everyday thinking I shouldn't be here for this bull shit and it makes everything worse. I haven't yet set an exact date again, i don't know if I will, I have what I need to do it, just have other things to wrap up that are overwhelming, but I definitely wanna be gone by the end of the year at very very latest

 

[hʚll]

i guess having to ctb with sn can't be really impulsive. so yeah. i have to choose a precise date and be sure to be alone and follow all the instructions carefully

 

[Misfit72]

I keep coming up with dates, but as I don't do any planning they pass by - I try and avoid the end of July as that coincides with my Mum's death and my eldest niece's birthday.

 

[Keto]

Hope this year would be the last for me.

 

[qwertylmno]

not really relevant to og topic, but i'm dating someone whose ctb date was my birthday. we met a month prior. she was going to block me then do it and hope i'd never find out about it

 

[return2dreamland]

not really. it's bound to happen one of these days, since i'm practicing more frequently, so i'm just chilling until i can get it right ^_^

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

It used to be important to me to do it in a date of significance. I'd plan a certain day, but then that day would come and it wouldn't feel right.

I've abandoned that notion now. I'm just going to go when I'm ready.

 

[ClownMe]

For me personally, yes. I want to ctb on New Year's Eve after watching the fireworks one last time.

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

For me personally, yes. I want to ctb on New Year's Eve after watching the fireworks one last time.

Same. With all the anhedonia and chronic depression fireworks are the last thing able to bring me some actual joy. New year's eve is still a little bit magical to me, I've always loved that holiday, even as kid - waiting for midnight, doing my best not to fall asleep then going outside with grandpa to watch "the show" - he even let me drink champagne! ehhh...

 

[Cant go back]

No date matters to me. It will be impulsive

 

[Hurt]

I'm already dead. It doesn't matter if I ctb today or in a few months. But I have to strong for people who love me.

 

[LastFlowers]

I do not have an exact date, but I'm already angry I wasn't able to get it over with last winter, other people in my life have things I need back in my possession (or destroyed) and they are being extremely difficult about it, I already had to finally send a nasty ass text to one of them because I have had enough of the dragging out of things that belong to me, of which only I will suffer and be humiliated from.
Preparations are already exhausting enough on my end.
The only thing I want to avoid with dates is that I do not want to go on a date that has any other significance to someone in the family, etc, as I don't want to be accused in death of trying to taint someone else's "day", I just want it to be a meaningless, empty day like any other.

 

[hahabye]

Yes, I have my date pretty much set, there aren't many things that could make me change it at this point.

I felt like I needed a date as a deadline to make myself organise all the things that I needed to do before I ctb. Otherwise my depression would've taken over and I would been procrastinating while suffering for a long time. Most of those things are done now.

My date is one day before my birthday, which I absolutely despise. I don't want to have to go through it again.

So less than two weeks left for me.

 

[archipelago]

Yes. I'm trying to find something that will work before a certain date next month, to avoid painful thought/associations with the date itself.

 

[Depressed_Kettle]

I don't have any date set in mind. Perhaps I should think about it more to avoid certain dates. I just want to do it when I'm relaxed instead of stressed out.

 

[AsToldByNish]

The date doesn't matter. If I had the means I wanted, I'd do it now