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SDB

Student
Jul 21, 2025
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This isn't my imagination but at 45 I know deep down not a single person will give a fuck. When I'm gone not one.

Interestingly enough it doesn't bother me at all.
 
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mikidagreen

dismal enjoyer
Apr 14, 2026
28
somewhat, i know my wife will be devastated but past her i have no one family wise left and my friends will move on with their own lives. it doesnt bother me though i feel like if i want to die this bad and do it they should understand to an extent
 
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SDB

Student
Jul 21, 2025
190
somewhat, i know my wife will be devastated but past her i have no one family wise left and my friends will move on with their own lives. it doesnt bother me though i feel like if i want to die this bad and do it they should understand to an extent

Well at least you have one person I actually have literally no one. I talk about suicide constantly they shrug it off. Or they think it's for attention or some bother excuse. But it's real.

They'll be shocked ( family)on whom I'm leaving money to. I'm sure they think I'll kill myself and that will help their finances. I wish id be around to see the shock on their faces. They won't get a thing.
 
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telekon

Arcanist
Feb 5, 2025
403
This isn't my imagination but at 45 I know deep down not a single person will give a fuck. When I'm gone not one.

Interestingly enough it doesn't bother me at all.
Nor should it... We all stand alone in death. Relationships are entirely illusionary; the only thing that matters is how you take care of your own soul. You can have a million friends and family members but if you're a dick, you're gonna have to live with yourself... and that would be hell
 
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SDB

Student
Jul 21, 2025
190
Nor should it... We all stand alone in death. Relationships are entirely illusionary; the only thing that matters is how you take care of your own soul. You can have a million friends and family members but if you're a dick, you're gonna have to live with yourself... and that would be hell

I guess, you know when I didn't get into dental school my dad cut me out of his life about85% or so. Class and profession mean more than anything to him. He won't even be friends with anyone not in the medical. All he talks about in every conversation is how wonderful he is being a dentist. At 45 he still won't stop insulting me for not getting into Dentistry. He's 81 only wants to compare incomes with me.

He literally insults me in every conversation we have it's unreal. He has to have a personality disorder
 
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telekon

Arcanist
Feb 5, 2025
403
The 10 personality disorders aren't really my thing as I know that's one of the main weapons psychology uses against people, but I know what you mean. And you can rest assured that one day he is going to turn those demons on himself.

Honestly people like that make me sick. I was saying to myself last night, "Fuck all the old people..." They don't understand a single thing younger generations have to go through now because of the selfish choices made by theirs.
 
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Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
379
Well at least you have one person I actually have literally no one. I talk about suicide constantly they shrug it off. Or they think it's for attention or some bother excuse. But it's real.

They'll be shocked ( family)on whom I'm leaving money to. I'm sure they think I'll kill myself and that will help their finances. I wish id be around to see the shock on their faces. They won't get a thing.
just want to say sir. epic revenge. its indeed a shame you have to die for it.

but well played sir.

well it doesnt solve your lonely ness. but enough people on sasu to chat with. hopefully that counts for something
 
Worndown

Worndown

Angelic
Mar 21, 2019
4,215
People die every day. I hope all are missed by someone. Some by more, some by less.
Life does not stop. It will depend on who you are and the quality of those around you. Will they think about you?
 
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SDB

Student
Jul 21, 2025
190
just want to say sir. epic revenge. its indeed a shame you have to die for it.

but well played sir.

well it doesnt solve your lonely ness. but enough people on sasu to chat with. hopefully that counts for something

I'm not actually lonely. I'm a major introvert that prefers being alone. I'm here as I have been suffering too long under a jobless and not finding anything and I'm flat out giving up after 5 years of next to nothing.
People die every day. I hope all are missed by someone. Some by more, some by less.
Life does not stop. It will depend on who you are and the quality of those around you. Will they think about you?

For about two minutes
 
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TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,504
Outside of my immediate family, and maybe a close friend or relatives (not in the US but overseas), nobody would really care, and whether or not people really care after my death (one day in the future...), I really am not affected by it (since I would not be sentient anymore to experience the aftermath, whether good or bad) and I wouldn't just hold out for someone in particular; not even my own family. Then again, it's likely there will be strangers IRL (maybe classmates from primary school or even during university years or so) who would come out of the woodwork, but they are likely 'performative' because outside of their own lives they never really kept in contact with me or so.
 
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cluefixphantom

Student
Feb 19, 2026
178
They dgaf. Odinary people and family don't really care, except to make fun. They are just being spiteful, especially if the CTB person was always a victim, disabled, outcasted, seen as dumb and ugly – So, in my case they dgaf that I'm alive and dgaf when I die.
 
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SDB

Student
Jul 21, 2025
190
They dgaf. Odinary people and family don't really care, except to make fun. They are just being spiteful, especially if the CTB person was always a victim, disabled, outcasted, seen as dumb and ugly – So, in my case they dgaf that I'm alive and dgaf when I die.
I know what you mean
 
phantomisgone

phantomisgone

Saving my world first before theirs.
Oct 17, 2022
73
For me, they would only be upset b/c they can't get anything else out from me to further their lives. I'm just really a tool for people & I'm tired of being used.

They never really cared for me, just for what I can do for them.
 
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chaotic_crow

Member
Apr 8, 2026
60
I know at least two of my siblings will be upset but other than that I think the rest of my family is going to celebrate or turn it into an attention grab. Like on social media they'll be posting how mental health matters and check on ppl or you can talk to them and then in private theyll talk shit about me even worse cause theres no way for me to defend myself. A few will call me selfish on top of it but honestly it helps me cause I don't have to feel guilty at all. These people hate me anyway and I've wasted years staying miserable for them for no reason
They dgaf. Odinary people and family don't really care, except to make fun. They are just being spiteful, especially if the CTB person was always a victim, disabled, outcasted, seen as dumb and ugly – So, in my case they dgaf that I'm alive and dgaf when I die.
That's how my family treats me too, especially since I ended up in my wheelchair 🙄
 
whitetaildeer

whitetaildeer

Wreck & Rule
Aug 5, 2024
315
Yes. I don't think I've ever been important in anyone but my late girlfriend's life, a fact that I'm absurdly grateful for. Maybe there will be shock, but I can't imagine there to be grief or anything along those lines.
 
phantomisgone

phantomisgone

Saving my world first before theirs.
Oct 17, 2022
73
For me, they will only care b/c they lost their tool in the end. I'm extremely valuable to people, but not for me, but for what I can do for them.
 
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jackiebrown67

Member
Apr 4, 2026
9
I live far away from family. They'll most likely have to get me cremated, which i dont mind. I had a partner who has been the closest person to me for the last fourteen years. We had a bond for a long time. These last few years we spent more time apart than together. We still talk and are the closest person to eachother. I hope he misses me, cries for me. A lot of his friends around him have passed away due to a high risk lifestyle, ie partying, overdoses, so he knows what it is like. He'll be the last person close to me, to actually know me. Thats all I care about, I hope he really cared.
 

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