does anyone else feel suicidal over nostalgia?

[Blue Ocean]

I miss 2010-2017

 

[sanction]

In some ways, yes

Those were some better years for me as well, compared to now

These past few nights I been thinking about 10 years ago (2013 to 2015)

I wish there was a time machine to go back

 

[badatparties]

Yeah but i realize it's a trap. If i go back there with the same mindset i have now i would still be depressed.

The only reason back then was magical was because i was a naive child and didn't know the horrors of the world and hadn't been damaged yet.

i try and watch some of my childhood movies from time to time to relive it.

However like Albus Dumbeldore said when Harry was sitting in front of the mirror of Erised, "It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live."

 

[LonelyMe]

I'm not feeling suicidal because of nostalgia but I do miss the times when I was young and not depressed. I should NEVER have started using the internet. Way too easy to get absorbed in it and way too much negative stuff on the internet. I feel like that really ruined my life, at least partially.

 

[fmbrisk]

yeah, somehow i've gotten more socially inept over the years. I used to have my cat to comfort me, but she died a couple months ago, I don't know what to do now

 

[halfway_y]

I feel suicidal in part because of NOT feeling nostalgia. It was so good at relieving the pain, but now I've grown numb to it pretty much completely. I want to feel sad about the past, but instead I just don't feel anything at all. I wish I could feel nostalgia now.

 

[FrownyFace]

Every single day I just want to go back in time to a certain moment and be stuck in it forever. Life was never perfect but it was better then.

 

[Ligottian]

It's definitely in the mix of reasons.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

When I realize the past wasn't actually what I thought it was when I was there. When I realize the past is gone forever and is meaningless. Yes.

 

[divinemistress87]

I miss 2010-2017

Everything went to total shit after 2017

 

[astonishedturnip]

Absolutely. Just let me be 13 again, I know what to do now.

I miss having my deceased loved ones in my life. I miss my parents being younger and not even having any anxiety over them dying someday. I miss my family all living together and coming together more than briefly once every other week or so. I miss being able to hang out with my friends daily instead of once a year (they're all married with kids now and live far away). I miss my only worries being homework -- no bills or health issues. I miss long summer holidays and family vacations and innocence. I miss having crushes. I miss playing Pokémon for 3 hours straight lmao.

Don't get me wrong, I know those old days weren't perfect by any means (no money but allowance, no freedom that you get as an adult, bullying, tedium, etc.) but I still miss it. Knowing there's nothing in the future but loneliness, decline and working until I'm 75 bites.

 

[slinkey10]

Absolutely. Just let me be 13 again, I know what to do now.

I miss having my deceased loved ones in my life. I miss my parents being younger and not even having any anxiety over them dying someday. I miss my family all living together and coming together more than briefly once every other week or so. I miss being able to hang out with my friends daily instead of once a year (they're all married with kids now and live far away). I miss my only worries being homework -- no bills or health issues. I miss long summer holidays and family vacations and innocence. I miss having crushes. I miss playing Pokémon for 3 hours straight lmao.

Don't get me wrong, I know those old days weren't perfect by any means (no money but allowance, no freedom that you get as an adult, bullying, tedium, etc.) but I still miss it. Knowing there's nothing in the future but loneliness, decline and working until I'm 75 bites.

Your first paragraph is completely understandable & your feelings are valid. !
Second paragraph... u can use the next 75 years to make a difference & help others. Its not for nothing ... the macro lvl changes you have the pwr to change others lives is huge over a 75 year period as you predict! or just be there for others in the here & now!

That is how u can make a difference! & make sense of this bs we all are living in :)

 

[22yearsbroken]

My past is my biggest addiction that haunts me from the AM to the PM ...and i dont always regret it but i do regret hiw it turned out

 

[slinkey10]

Absolutely. Just let me be 13 again, I know what to do now.

I miss having my deceased loved ones in my life. I miss my parents being younger and not even having any anxiety over them dying someday. I miss my family all living together and coming together more than briefly once every other week or so. I miss being able to hang out with my friends daily instead of once a year (they're all married with kids now and live far away). I miss my only worries being homework -- no bills or health issues. I miss long summer holidays and family vacations and innocence. I miss having crushes. I miss playing Pokémon for 3 hours straight lmao.

Don't get me wrong, I know those old days weren't perfect by any means (no money but allowance, no freedom that you get as an adult, bullying, tedium, etc.) but I still miss it. Knowing there's nothing in the future but loneliness, decline and working until I'm 75 bites.

sorry ... going to quote Mother Theresa.. "A look can shift a soul, a smile can save a life" or, the other way round but ..you still have the power to do this.

!!

My past is my biggest addiction that haunts me from the AM to the PM ...and i dont always regret it but i do regret hiw it turned out

read or audiobook cs lewis 'the great divorce'
U have to let that past go. I know, easier said than done.

 

[Valhala]

Absolutely yes, I am constantly and obsessively in 2023, which I spent with my partner whom I love more than anything. I even divide the time in my life into what was before her and the agony I am going through after breaking up with her. I would give everything, absolutely everything to be with her again even if only for one day, to be able to touch her, hug her, kiss her, hear her voice once more..

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

I'm nostalgic for my very early childhood when I was nonverbal (I have a developmental disability). The world is so much more vibrant without the noise pollution that comes with speech.

 

[Mooseanonsky]

Whenever the pain is unbearable I kind of dissociate and go back almost 20 years ago when I was just a kid eating fruity pebbles while watching Saturday cartoons at 7 am. A part of me hopes there's an afterlife similar to it.