does anyone else feel destined to die this way?

[lacedup]

hi! new member, long time lurker.

i truly feel as if i wasn't mean to die naturally. my first attempt was in middle school. i've been struggling with self harm for over 8 years now aswell .
i can't imagine me not dying from suicide, and i constantly feel about it. a natural death is just unrealistic

 

[Aphid]

I can't imagine not dying from suicide either. It might be a psychosis thing but genuinely I cannot imagine me dying to natural causes. I can't imagine a future past maybe the next year,

 

[SweetChariot]

Sorta yeah i believe so, i've always had this illness
I first had depression when i was in 5th grade, literally a time where i had no worries and responsibility and yet my mind still goes to dark places, had a somewhat of an attempt in highschool basically just tying a noose and staring at it and now here i am

 

[pieceoffox]

My suicidal and depressive tendencies manifested themselves at the age of 12. I've been living with them for eight years now. And yes, I'm deeply convinced that the only possible end to my life is suicide. Perhaps soon, perhaps not so soon, but either way, it will be suicide

 

[Aflame5926]

yes even through im 30+ i cant imagine for me ever growing up. i can be quite childish

but its never enough for me and by for me reasoning it just not gonna change. i will CTB one day.
and for now it planned for somewhere end this year

 

[StupiderJuniper]

yeah i do too. never thought i'd live until 18, i highly doubt id survive my eventual 20s let alone getting anywhere close to 30 considering i've been like this for god knows how long lol.

 

[callmer]

Yes. I believe this is my fate that I will one day have to face. At the same time though I embrace it tbh, I don't really wish or pray for any different fate.