Do you think being on SS has saved your life?

[matt6callis]

I'm starting to think that it has really helped me, knowing I am suicidal and that there are other people out there who feel this way.

 

[roguetrader]

No, and it will not. But it's good to know of the better methods discussed openly here.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, nothing could save me. I do not want to be saved by anything. I do not want to suffer anymore. I just want to be free from this existence. I should have never been born in the first place.

 

[Foresight]

Temporarily. It doesn't save me from cruel realities beyond my time here. It's a nice refuge sometimes.

 

[Solar1703]

No and it won't probably. However it helped me to postpone my decision and to meet really supportive people.

 

[TheHatedOne]

No.

 

[Interloper]

Maybe temporarily? As with any forum I've visited in my life I get like semi-attached to the regulars, even some I've never even spoken to. And that makes it so much harder to leave. But I don't know if I would call it 'saved' in that case.

 

[Soulless Angel]

I have been stopped by the guys on here from ctb, but its not stopped me thinking/wanting and eventually doing it, if that makes any sense? I barely come here now as I don't have time to myself, but its a place of a safety net in some ways

 

[lostautist]

No. It's helped me calm anxiety. I've talked about things I've never had the courage to before.

 

[Solar1703]

No. It's helped me calm anxiety. I've talked about things I've never had the courage to before.

Exactly the same here.

 

[Squalo]

it helps me to share my anxieties and fears with people who can understand them, this makes me feel better but my life is still horrible.

 

[allesistgut]

though i doubt i will change my mind about wanting to ctb, it has felt nice to finally be able to speak more openly about my feelings and discuss some things regarding ctb that i've been thinking about.

i've only even vaguely mentioned my suicidal thoughts to some people, but when i did i spoke of it in the past tense and made it sound very distant and as if i never seriously considered ctb. so being able to at least admit that this is how i'm feeling right now does bring some comfort i suppose.

 

[fatefulstillness]

It has relieved a lot of my suffering since I don't have to hide or lie about how I'm actually doing and you can find actual support from people who won't try to make a decision that can only be yours. A space like this is definitely a refuge and helps me postpone the time of my death, which otherwise would've been much sooner and way more violent. I'd say it's a temporary help, but that's all I want and need. We're ephemeral, and I don't think the duration of our stay matters more than its quality.

I'm happy this place helps you and others.

 

[juraviel]

i think maybe, yeah. i understood how high the rate of failure is for most methods and the only reasonable (albeit not failure proof) is N which i cannot afford at the moment so, until i can, I don't think i'll have the guts to follow through with anything else even though i bought sn months ago and it's still chilling in my closet..

 

[noname223]

Temporarily. It doesn't save me from cruel realities beyond my time here. It's a nice refuge sometimes.

Yeah I relate to that. It makes my pain more bearable but I think in the end this forum won't stop me of doing it

 

[MelancholyMagic]

Nope. I like to post here and lurk, but this site has no weight on if I ctb (one way or the other). At least no identifiable weight as far as I'm concerned.

 

[Rational man]

Its helped.me.to share my pain amongst lovely souls who are also in pain. I thought i was alone until i came across this site. Here i have met people who are willing to spend time sharing thoughts on all sorts of ideas. At no stage have I felt encouraged to ctb. Moreover, its helped me to reflect upon 'am I doing the right thing.'

 

[dreadpirateroberts69]

This forum has certainly helped me cope, but it would take an actual change in life circumstances to truly save me.

 

[Chiisai]

Hmmm... Definitely prolonging my stay but its making my stay bearable each day for sure.

 

[Nanako]

It's definitely played a big role in helping me regain my sanity, by which I mean I'm no longer feeling this terrible sense of dread that made each passing minute in my life an unbearable experience. I'm still suicidal, but also not as stressed as I used to be.

 

[LastFlowers]

No but it's probably saved me from a more impulsive suicide with a much higher risk of failure where I would be left brain damaged, further maimed, or paralyzed.

I'm starting to think that it has really helped me, knowing I am suicidal and that there are other people out there who feel this way.

Well I am glad that it has helped you in that way, for some people it actually makes them feel less suicidal-there is relief in being heard and acknowledged beyond platitudes and reproach, for others it is at least a place of comfort before they say their final farewells.

This forum has certainly helped me cope, but it would take an actual change in life circumstances to truly save me.

Yea that about summarizes my situation as well.

 

[Sakura94]

Yes.

 

[peepo]

Technically yes? I learned how some methods can leave you brain dead if you fail. So it kinda saved me from not attempting those methods.

 

[bloodfallsfirst]

My friend doesn't understand how much better the site makes me feel - paradoxically, my depression lifts as I look up ways to end it. Practically, though, I've had to bypass his child locks blocking this site.

 

[myopybyproxy]

no - i was going to kill myself whether i had found out about this forum or not.

but perhaps yes - saved me from the possibility of failure and forced to live brain damaged or otherwise disabled without the chance of trying again and succeeding. that is, was able to hammer out the details of my method here, which is more help than i can say anywhere else has given me.

 

[Wrennie]

It has definitely served to "prolong" it, if anything.

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

No, but it deepened my view on death, from a taboo, a bogey you don't dare even to look at and avoid acknowledging at all costs, to that which it really is - an ordinary part of life, something that can, under the right circumstances, be liberating, even beautiful. Someone might say it desensitized me to it, but it's not so simple. You can't claim you know anything about life if you never contemplated death.

 

[dss262]

I found a better method, SN. However it requires planning and I have not gone through with it because I have time to think.

 

[Istanbulite]

definitely.

 

[Versailles]

I would say that it has rather made my days a little more pleasant