End_Game
Alone, Burden, Unwanted
- Dec 13, 2019
- 38
This existing thing is okay, but there is no point in this shit. What's the point? The whole point is pain. What's the point in showing love if people spit in your face in return? Can't get love, can't show love without people using you, and hurting you. I'm 27 and never had sex, I'm looking to love someone first and every time I do, I love too hard. I've been saying since I was 20 that I will die of suicide when I'm old. In my 40s or 50s. So far I'm on track. I will do it with a gun, going out with a BANG! I will die as I lived, unloved. I'm not gonna plan it and talk myself out of it. It will be a spare of the moment thing. I don't want some sad ending, I just don't wanna be in a world without the love I seek. The void of death is better. I know, I've been there before I was born. I felt nothing. I will go back to feeling nothing. Thinking nothing. Death will love me and hug me forever, never letting go. The void will love me, and I will never no it because I will be nothing.
