Do you ever feel like maybe you actually succeeded?

[Atticuss]

I wonder this a lot. I've had three attempts, and two of them I don't really know how I survived. But it's made me think- maybe I didn't? Maybe this is just a purgatory I'm in now

Does anyone else feel like this?

 

[shiny_quill]

Not really, but mostly because I don't buy into the notion of afterlife. It sounds cruel, and if this is a purgatory, then it was put in place by someone or something so deranged it's a little frightening :/

 

[charlavail]

no bc my cat is here and she's too sweet to be stuck in the hell i'm mentally living in

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

no bc my cat is here and she's too sweet to be stuck in the hell i'm mentally living in

Accurate. My cat is too loveable for this to be purgatory.

 

[fightclub17]

I wonder this a lot. I've had three attempts, and two of them I don't really know how I survived. But it's made me think- maybe I didn't? Maybe this is just a purgatory I'm in now

Does anyone else feel like this?

I've survived one serious attempt, and I feel this. It's like a never ending horror movie.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

sometimes i wonder this too. i've felt very different since my attempt in december. i dont know that i believe in that but i've just felt so weird in then so i dont know.

 

[need2exit]

I wonder this a lot. I've had three attempts, and two of them I don't really know how I survived. But it's made me think- maybe I didn't? Maybe this is just a purgatory I'm in now

Does anyone else feel like this?

I literally feel like a walking corpse, the world felt like it stopped moving and i think im in hell

 

[Atticuss]

I'm glad some people get what I mean, at least. I'm not sure how much detail I can go into here but at the very least I definitely have some lingering damage from it. Life feels like a dream now and time goes by so fast.

 

[Life's not a comedy]

I wonder how all this can even be real but I don't think it's purgatory.

 

[burninghill]

I don't necessarily feel like I'm in purgatory but I do feel like a part of me died when I attempted last. I constantly feel like I'm living on borrowed time.

 

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[Topaz111]

Sometimes I wonder if my first attempt was actually succesful and all that I've been experiencing after that is just me being stuck in literal hell. Things were already hellish before the attempt though obviously and even just the fact that I was born autistic already cursed me so it was only a matter of time..

 

[SomewhereNew]

I don't know I swallowed all my antidepressants once and went to the er and blacked out and lost a few days and my life has been hell since so it's possible