do you believe you will ever find someone that loves you?

[NothingElseMatters]

Almost 30yo and I feel so lonely and miserable. Maybe I was meant to die alone. I feel like there's nothing that could possible make my suicide thoughts go away.

 

[PrettyMoose]

I could if I wanted to but I don't care enough to. Life just isn't worth it to me regardless.

 

[DoNotLet2]

Yeah no one loves me and I doubt someone will

 

[esoragoto]

I'm not entirely certain I'm capable of love to begin with. It definitely felt like something to aspire to before, but it feels like an empty goal these days. Woe unto anyone crazy enough to fall in love with me anyways, am I right?

 

[nervousandanxious]

I am tired of feeling so lonely and miserable every day. A lot of people will talk a big game on social media, act like they want to hang out n shit then when it comes down to it, there's always some stupid excuse for why they can't come through. I'm almost 25 now, and never really had a fully loving relationship. I'm starting to lose hope I ever will and would rather die young than get old and be more miserable. Every single year, nothing improves. I try to fix things but can't. I'm ready to just go. I feel like I won't be missing out on much once I'm deceased

 

[muffin222]

Yeah, but it won't solve my problems. It would just be a lovely bonus

 

[lostangel]

Not really, I believe it will be conditional love. As in if I lost my job my S.O would leave me. So to even find that person would be a challenge in itself.

 

[_Minsk]

depression is kinda like a death sentence to long lasting relationships for me, out of my experience..

 

[Arrow]

no i'm forever alone tbh

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

No, because I stopped loving myself

 

[ssaaahmo]

I am not sure anymore. If I can't love myself, how could I expect others to love me, too?

 

[Mare Tranquillitatis]

Its irrelevant if someone loves me - i am no longer interested in this world.

 

[SerialFailer]

The ones who said they loved me were the ones who were the fastest to ghost the moment something went wrong (other than my family I live with).

I long since learned whenever a woman says "I love you" it means either: "I love you in this exact moment and this moment only" or "I lust for you".
Probably the same for men, I wouldn't know.

Love is almost always conditional.

 

[InterstateFlowers]

Relationship-wise? Maybe. I wouldn't want someone to fall for me and I don't want to fall in love anyways, I'm not ready for a relationship emotionally. On the other hand, my family loves me unconditionally yet I still want to die. I know that by killing myself I'll be hurting them and it's just something I'll have to deal with before ctbing.

 

[UrDreamz]

Sadly.. I have loved and lost . Even currently have some that say they love me even tho I just bring destruction to those that try as they will never understand my mindset and are destined to forever question if there was something they could have done .. I have been broken and tried piecing it together for too long to bother now. My life is like using tape to hold something together while you fill it with water.

 

[FinalDestination]

It's entirely an impossibility. Even still, i don't believe I'm capable of loving and letting in another person

 

[azdertex1598]

Almost 30yo and I feel so lonely and miserable. Maybe I was meant to die alone. I feel like there's nothing that could possible make my suicide thoughts go away.

i'm sorry but im 22yo and y are 30yo , u didn't understand that such kind of love doenst exist there are types of loves and that depends on your level in t community .. i belive you can find someone to love you but in the image of owning you and not to love you for loving you !! i wish the best for you

 

[itsamadworld]

I want to believe it's possible. But I know this thing called love is usually just two years long, and it's lust and a drive to procreate! Then after that, hopefully you can tolerate the person, and live without sex, or you can get it and hit it on the sly! Lol....People are crazy.... But thats about it, the animal urge! And then there are the people you can tolerate. But as for love, I think it's condional...even from yo mama!

 

[Élégie]

No. I've never been in a serious relationship and probably never will be. I don't have friends either. My life is pathetic.

 

[SuicideDJ]

No, because I stopped loving myself

 

[darkghost]

I don't think someone would be crazy enough to love me. It isn't possible

 

[MeriDeath]

No because imma CTB soon and I don't need anyone to love me

 

[1DayItWillBover]

maybe having a partner will save my life

 

[Muirthemne]

Nope. That's why I'm here.

 

[Saddaisy]

I did... we were in love (or I thought) for 18 years. He cheated on me (he doesn't know I know). So I'm that brought me here and I'm still living a lie with him until I can finally have the place to myself. Well him cheating is what pushed me over the edge.

 

[Oh_dear_how_Gastly]

I have people in my life who love me very much, and I feel really lucky in that respect. It also makes me feel guilty for even having thoughts about ctb though :(

 

[bipolarg0ner]

Eh I mean could be possible but I rarely feel anything anymore.

 

[serah]

the only kind of love ive known has been unrequited love. i truly believe i am meant and will die alone

 

[Bruces]

I think I'm unlovable to be honest because I'm just too unbalanced!

 

[mathieu]

There have been guys who said they loved me but always the wrong ones. The ones I loved didn't feel the same.