Do u hate being disabled?

[shaggy_dooo]

Like anyone of u guys that are disabled due to a physical or a mental illness and you're just maybe sitting in your house like wtf am i living for what am i supposed to do why dont i just die or kill myself thats me everyday i wanns get high everyday bc i cant stand my head and i cant go outside and im isolated and i wanna go away from this fucking place of pain away from anyone who ever hurt me and away from everyone that way nobody will hurt me again.

 

[unluckysadness]

Yes I hate it. Fortunately I'm not in a wheelchair or something else, but my physical and mental condition are not suitable with an acceptable life.
As you, I just want to be in peace. I guess that I must be very strong because I've experienced so much pain / stress / anxiety / traumas for decades (you cannot imagine what I endured) and I'm still here in this shitty life. Knowing that other people are in huge suffering helps me to cope.

I really wish you can find the peace you deserve.

 

[gunmetalblue]

Very, sadly, relatable.

 

[hurts2b]

Yes. Same. Employment is impossible, friendship is impossible. Living is impossible.

 

[Hystearical]

Yes it's hellish

 

[thelostautistic]

I hate it so much. Getting through every day is so hard.

 

[insectontrial]

Yes. My disability is the reason I was abused in my childhood and is the reason I am unemployed as an adult. I'd have lived a completely different life without it. I actually don't think I'd want to CTB in a life without my condition because none of the aforementioned circumstances would have ever come into effect.

 

[inpainnosleep]

Yes. Especially the new neurological disabilities that suddenly came along. I was already on disability for mental issues and autism. The new issues is why I want to cbt. My life was limited before that but I still enjoyed a lot of things and did everything on my own (except for driving) and had social life that had gotten better.

 

[peacebenow]

yes. I used to empower myself by how strong I was but have reached a point in life where I am broken and done and need peace. Truly don't know what else to do as I cannot go on.

 

[certified_idiot]

I think it would be technically possible for me to live if I had a good support system. As it is, my genetics have failed me and my environment is slowly killing me anyway. I was doomed to fail from the moment I was born. If I got nice friends who could take care of me and proper medication, I could live, but I don't think that's going to happen. The world wants me dead anyway.

 

[echoINTHEMIRROR]

Like anyone of u guys that are disabled due to a physical or a mental illness and you're just maybe sitting in your house like wtf am i living for what am i supposed to do why dont i just die or kill myself thats me everyday i wanns get high everyday bc i cant stand my head and i cant go outside and im isolated and i wanna go away from this fucking place of pain away from anyone who ever hurt me and away from everyone that way nobody will hurt me again.

I have RA and a bunch of other undiagnosed bullshit and im supposed to have a wheelchair by now but i dont so i cant go to school (as often) or get a job so im just stuck in a really isolating position of just neing. alone. all the time.

 

[if_i_make_it]

tbh I don't hate my disability as much as I hate how I am forced to live because our stupid government hates disabled people and does not want us to have fulfilling, independent lives. the symptoms themselves are hard, but it would be bearable if I had income and other supports.

 

[ForeverLonely82]

absolutely. Anxiety and panic disorder, anhedonia, massive depressive disorder and now I got chronic kidney disease stage 2....People who know I am this way avoid me and treat me as I,myself am a disease. I sometimes wish I was well enough to work so I can not be in my head all the time, but I can't handle people at all or stress as I shut down no matter what due to PTSD I got from years of abuse from people I once loved. Losing my wife just made my world worse. total isolation. I sometimes feel myself going mad because i crave attention or touch, but I am not worthy of it because no one will or cares about my existence at all. I am just going through the motion until I am dead...as I have no other choice. I would have rather not been brough into the world, while my childhood days were happy......shortly there after wasn't. Rather have to never existed at all. especially now.