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verminnnn

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my sn was intercepted by border officers and i had the police visit me today. if you are in the uk, do not order sn from r on mic, as they will absolutely find out and find you
 
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my sn was intercepted by border officers and i had the police visit me today. if you are in the uk, do not order sn from r on mic, as they will absolutely find out and find you
oh the joys of the police coming to your door...
 
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h4ppyhypoxia

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ive seen a couple of people in the uk get welfare checks from police after ordering sn from mic even when the package is mislabeled i wonder if theyre all ordering from the same seller or if LE have just cottoned onto any packages being delivered from mic
 
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verminnnn

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the police didn't know what mic was when they came to me, so i don't think they're tracking all mic purchases. they lied to my face and told me sn is illegal here (not true) and that finding sn in a home would warrant the evacuation of the entire street (again, not true)
 
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the police didn't know what mic was when they came to me, so i don't think they're tracking all mic purchases. they lied to my face and told me sn is illegal here (not true) and that finding sn in a home would warrant the evacuation of the entire street (again, not true)
Damn. Why they make ctb so difficult
 
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the police didn't know what mic was when they came to me, so i don't think they're tracking all mic purchases. they lied to my face and told me sn is illegal here (not true) and that finding sn in a home would warrant the evacuation of the entire street (again, not true)
imo, SN under 2kg is not enough to warrant evacuation of a street, especially if it is in a closed container.

If it was thrown from a rooftop and the powder is going through the air that is a different story (but that's not the case)

PS: sadly SN has been used in murder too [1], not just for personal CTB, maybe they read that recently and became paranoid.

[1] https://www.bhaskarenglish.in/local...s-sodium-nitrite-serial-killer-136331391.html
 
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imo, SN under 2kg is not enough to warrant evacuation of a street, especially if it is in a closed container.

If it was thrown from a rooftop and the powder is going through the air that is a different story (but that's not the case)

PS: sadly SN has been used in murder too [1], not just for personal CTB, maybe they read that recently and became paranoid.

[1] https://www.bhaskarenglish.in/local...s-sodium-nitrite-serial-killer-136331391.html
This story is shit scary, such a crime thriller 🥶
Interestingly, people here take anti emetics and benzodiazepine and still have the risk of throwing up.
How did this guy murder these many ppl with such a small undetectable amount of SN.
 
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This story is shit scary, such a crime thriller 🥶
Interestingly, people here take anti emetics and benzodiazepine and still have the risk of throwing up.
How did this guy murder these many ppl with such a small undetectable amount of SN.
probably because unlike the case of CTB, where the compound is known (eg nearby) and hospitalisation can occur quickly, with murder, the victims might not know what compound they consumed, and they probably didn't go to a hospital on time either.
 
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probably because unlike the case of CTB, where the compound is known (eg nearby) and hospitalisation can occur quickly, with murder, the victims might not know what compound they consumed, and they probably didn't go to a hospital on time either.
Any idea if the solution i.e. water+sn tasteless or chalky or acidic or bitter or pungent or may be some other taste? Because so many people had this water without suspecting that something is mixed in the water.
And the quantity is also make me go bonkers. The news article said that the amount of sn he used for his own suicide was not much which is why the police couldn't find it in his jacket.
Can we really ctb with a few grams of SN..
If it was around😳 why the hell did no one tell me about it😭 i could have ctbed using sn while it was still available easily😭😭😭
I have literally spent 2 decades searching for a method to ctb. Why was it nowhere on Google🥹
I'm having FOMO now
 
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Any idea if the solution i.e. water+sn tasteless or chalky or acidic or bitter or pungent or may be some other taste? Because so many people had this water without suspecting that something is mixed in the water.
And the quantity is also make me go bonkers. The news article said that the amount of sn he used for his own suicide was not much which is why the police couldn't find it in his jacket.
Can we really ctb with a few grams of SN..
If it was around😳 why the hell did no one tell me about it😭 i could have ctbed using sn while it was still available easily😭😭😭
I heard from a few posts here saying it tastes like metallic salt (tho tasting isn't recommended coz some people have died early from tasting)

It's may be possible to CTB with less SN, just that the timeframe (and therefore potential for discomfort) could expand from ~10-25 mins to unconsciousness, to 1-2h (iirc, someone in profile mentioned tasting 2-3g SN, listed symptoms, and never posted again after just over an hour... a smoker here tried 2g or so of SN and was unconscious within the hour, only survived coz he went to hospital early).
 
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I heard from a few posts here saying it tastes like metallic salt (tho tasting isn't recommended coz some people have died early from tasting)

It's may be possible to CTB with less SN, just that the timeframe (and therefore potential for discomfort) could expand from ~10-25 mins to unconsciousness, to 1-2h (iirc, someone in profile mentioned tasting 2-3g SN, listed symptoms, and never posted again after just over an hour... a smoker here tried 2g or so of SN and was unconscious within the hour, only survived coz he went to hospital early).
Damn, no wonder, SN is the preferred method on SaSu. Ughh how can i be this dumb. Back in 2022, it was easy to get SN in India. As i didn't have access to anti emetics and benzo, i thought SN will not be a success so i never looked at it. But this article is an eye opener🤯
I'll try to use my research ability to find a legit source. I hope i can find one and not get scammed in the process. I got scammed while trying to score weed
 
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Damn, no wonder, SN is the preferred method on SaSu. Ughh how can i be this dumb. Back in 2022, it was easy to get SN in India. As i didn't have access to anti emetics and benzo, i thought SN will not be a success so i never looked at it. But this article is an eye opener🤯
Even around 2022 and possibly before, I read about "SN" as guest... even discovered SaSu because wikipedia's references for Sodium Nitrite pointed here somehow!

Also back then I didn't feel confident writing a reason to join (the only reason I joined in 2025 at age 20.9+ is I miiight have been creative with my entry text, but I did get it changed to more accurate text), didn't have access to $ I could spend undetected, and didn't know any potential paths to SN or other purchasable stuff for CTB.
 
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Even around 2022 and possibly before, I read about "SN" as guest... even discovered SaSu because wikipedia's references for Sodium Nitrite pointed here somehow!

Also back then I didn't feel confident writing a reason to join (the only reason I joined in 2025 at age 20.9+ is I miiight have been creative with my entry text, but I did get it changed to more accurate text), didn't have access to $ I could spend undetected, and didn't know any potential paths to SN or other purchasable stuff for CTB.
Yeah, in 2022 they wouldn't have let you in for not having attained adulthood. I discovered it in November 2022. I created an account in feb 2024 when i became suicidal again after giving life a chance
I was active for few months, then i didn't visit for a long time. Last week, i got active again
 
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Yeah, in 2022 they wouldn't have let you in for not having attained adulthood. I discovered it in November 2022. I created an account in feb 2024 when i became suicidal again after giving life a chance
mmm that too, I was 17/18 in 2022 depending on the date, so not only was I ineligible for registration then, I also didn't know what to write (and that continued until a very creative spark occured in 2025)

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mmm that too, I was 17/18 in 2022 depending on the date, so not only was I ineligible for registration then, I also didn't know what to write (and that continued until a very creative spark occured in 2025)

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It's a good thing you could create an account here. Just sharing the thoughts here helps feel better. I didn't realise that in 2022. I wish i was active in those days.
Interestingly, when i logged in to SaSu last week for the first time. I was getting crazy. Right now I'm very relaxed after talking to you all. Even though i have ctb on my mind, but that urgency is gone
 
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fitoo5999

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Jul 23, 2026
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the police didn't know what mic was when they came to me, so i don't think they're tracking all mic purchases. they lied to my face and told me sn is illegal here (not true) and that finding sn in a home would warrant the evacuation of the entire street (again, not true)
What did you say?
 
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h4ppyhypoxia

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Aug 8, 2026
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the police didn't know what mic was when they came to me, so i don't think they're tracking all mic purchases. they lied to my face and told me sn is illegal here (not true) and that finding sn in a home would warrant the evacuation of the entire street (again, not true)
damn thats insane did they mislabel the package for you?
 
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imagonner

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Aug 9, 2026
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the police didn't know what mic was when they came to me, so i don't think they're tracking all mic purchases. they lied to my face and told me sn is illegal here (not true) and that finding sn in a home would warrant the evacuation of the entire street (again, not true)
my blood boils just reading about this...they would have got an earful from me...
 
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imagonner

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I'm curious too, what can you even say to them in a situation like this…
"no comment" or "it wasnt me, dunno what u r on about". there are other options available, but i wouldnt recommend them, unless you want to get arrested before you ctb...
 
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"no comment" or "it wasnt me, dunno what u r on about". there are other options available, but i wouldnt recommend them, unless you want to get arrested before you ctb...
don't say that I literally just ordered from them 😞
would it even work saying it wasn't u since it literally has ur name and address
i feel like it'd be better to just tell the truth
 
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imagonner

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Aug 9, 2026
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don't say that I literally just ordered from them 😞
would it even work saying it wasn't u since it literally has ur name and address
i feel like it'd be better to just tell the truth
someone could have used your details to order it, eg neighbour, malicious "friend" etc...

i once got stopped for a pnc check. had a wallet on me id found (honest, i found it, not bs). i was compliant, cop did the check, all ok, he was about to go on his way. i tell him i found this wallet. he takes it, checks it, turns out it was stolen. guess what? i got arrested for handling stolen goods. got locked up for nearly 24 hrs whilst they got the info they needed and interviewed me...

when a few months later i noticed a cop do a u turn to stop me, i threw a wallet id found over a wall and legged it (you wouldnt believe how many people drop wallets/phones when pissed. unfortunately, money not so much anymore). he detained me, put me in the back of the van and went to look for what id thrown. he found the wallet and it was not stolen, just lost. i pretended i had no clue what he was on about. he said he knew id thrown it but couldnt prove it, so he had to let me go, with the promise that he ll be watching me...

so no, dont tell them the truth, tell them what is less likely to get you in trouble.
 
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the police didn't know what mic was when they came to me, so i don't think they're tracking all mic purchases. they lied to my face and told me sn is illegal here (not true) and that finding sn in a home would warrant the evacuation of the entire street (again, not true)
LOL i would laugh in their face if they told me that
my sn was intercepted by border officers and i had the police visit me today. if you are in the uk, do not order sn from r on mic, as they will absolutely find out and find you
What did u say
 
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verminnnn

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Dec 4, 2019
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i was regrettably honest with them, i told them i ordered it online to use to kill myself, and i mentioned mic when asked. if i could go back i'd just pretend not to remember where i got it from. the package was mislabelled so i have no idea how they even figured it out. i'm already sectioned so lying would only serve to get me more time in an institution
 
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fitoo5999

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i was regrettably honest with them, i told them i ordered it online to use to kill myself, and i mentioned mic when asked. if i could go back i'd just pretend not to remember where i got it from. the package was mislabelled so i have no idea how they even figured it out. i'm already sectioned so lying would only serve to get me more time in an institution
Dam ok you have say it.
 
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my sn was intercepted by border officers and i had the police visit me today. if you are in the uk, do not order sn from r on mic, as they will absolutely find out and find you
Oh no I'm sorry for you..what happend then? Isn't it illegal fpr private people to buy it in the UK? what did the police ask you? How did you pay for it? Bc they could just watch your transactions..
Did you get a fine?
 
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someone could have used your details to order it, eg neighbour, malicious "friend" etc...

i once got stopped for a pnc check. had a wallet on me id found (honest, i found it, not bs). i was compliant, cop did the check, all ok, he was about to go on his way. i tell him i found this wallet. he takes it, checks it, turns out it was stolen. guess what? i got arrested for handling stolen goods. got locked up for nearly 24 hrs whilst they got the info they needed and interviewed me...

when a few months later i noticed a cop do a u turn to stop me, i threw a wallet id found over a wall and legged it (you wouldnt believe how many people drop wallets/phones when pissed. unfortunately, money not so much anymore). he detained me, put me in the back of the van and went to look for what id thrown. he found the wallet and it was not stolen, just lost. i pretended i had no clue what he was on about. he said he knew id thrown it but couldnt prove it, so he had to let me go, with the promise that he ll be watching me...

so no, dont tell them the truth, tell them what is less likely to get you in trouble.
ahh okay thank youuuu I guess I'll just say I have no clue and some friend sent it to me ❤️‍🩹
 
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i was regrettably honest with them, i told them i ordered it online to use to kill myself, and i mentioned mic when asked. if i could go back i'd just pretend not to remember where i got it from. the package was mislabelled so i have no idea how they even figured it out. i'm already sectioned so lying would only serve to get me more time in an institution
i suspect border force (not the police) might have the sender blacklisted, so mislabelling does nothing...border force intercept his incoming items and inform the police accordingly.

once you re known for whatever, you have to fly under the radar...

the police didn't know what mic was when they came to me, so i don't think they're tracking all mic purchases. they lied to my face and told me sn is illegal here (not true) and that finding sn in a home would warrant the evacuation of the entire street (again, not true)
i remeber reading about some other substance that even in tiny amounts could cause street evacuation. the cops got their wires crossed.
 
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i was regrettably honest with them, i told them i ordered it online to use to kill myself, and i mentioned mic when asked. if i could go back i'd just pretend not to remember where i got it from. the package was mislabelled so i have no idea how they even figured it out. i'm already sectioned so lying would only serve to get me more time in an institution
did the police tell you if there would be any further action from them or mental health services?
 

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