Do ever feel ambivalence about CTB?

[Fadeawaaaay]

Sometimes it clearly feels like the only solution. Other times completely weird. Like wait what? That's insane.

 

[motel rooms]

The human mind is famous for producing thoughts that contradict each other...

 

[layne2001]

I'm in the process of buying SN and still feeling this. But at the end of the day I know its the only choice

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I'm in the process of buying SN and still feeling this. But at the end of the day I know its the only choice

If your other option is eventually homeless, alone, broke, hungry, or if you're lucky a sucky job…

 

[Deadweight]

I'm trying to talk myself into it, and I have a method, but the motivation to gather the materials isn't there yet. I need to shit or get off the pot. Ambivalence sucks, I still have to pay bills and meet obligations, but there's no desire to keep living.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I'm trying to talk myself into it, and I have a method, but the motivation to gather the materials isn't there yet. I need to shit or get off the pot. Ambivalence sucks, I still have to pay bills and meet obligations, but there's no desire to keep living.

It's hard to get excited to go through with this… What could be more miserable?

 

[Rustysoupcan]

I'm very ambivalent. On one hand, I hate my life, always have and always will. On the other hand I know I am very privileged and theoretically I should be happy, though I seem incapable of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I never feel ambivalence about ctb. It is the only solution for me and it is the only thing that feels right. When I think about no longer existing, it is a comforting thought. I want nothing to do with life, to exist is to suffer. All I want is to die, to never experience anything ever again and to be free from all pain. In a world as horrible as this, wanting to die is perfectly rational.