Venting destroyed the only thing that was keeping chained to this earth

[yumeganai]

i successfully destroyed the only friendship i had. i bought him some gifts for his birthday and was waiting to ship it out until i had completed some drawings that i was also going to send. i finished some of them. not sure if i want to mail it anymore. he'd probably just throw it away. i still don't have a method in mind. i live in a small town and can't drive. the only building high enough to kill me is closed to the public ever since someone jumped off it a couple years ago. Maybe I can find a parking garage somewhere. I'm just done. I got rid of the only thing that was keeping chained to this Earth. There's nothing left for me to live for. I don;t know why I'm not ecstatic. I feel even worth now. At least he hates me.