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tartvinegar

Student
Feb 14, 2025
152
Today was suppose to be the day I ctb, I have all my stuff prepared except for benzos (which I couldn't get) and SN (still stuck in transit)

My plan was to ctb before the 28th which is when I'm officially fired. I'm mad at USPS for throwing a wrench in that plan.

I'm just tired, depressed and in pain. I already had 2 suicide attempts, unsuccessful. I just want to find peace.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I understand just wanting to be at peace, I also feel so tired of suffering in this existence, to be permanently at peace from this cruel, painful existence and never suffer ever again is all I hope for, I hope that you find the relief you search for.
 
Worndown

Worndown

Illuminated
Mar 21, 2019
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Not your best day. Is delivery expected soon? Are there benzo alternatives?
Take the extra time to track down your last supply.
 
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tartvinegar

Student
Feb 14, 2025
152
Benzos are tightly regulated where I am, I could only get beta blockers.
 
CravingPeace

CravingPeace

It’s only a matter of time
Feb 19, 2025
338
Ugh, I'm sorry that your SN has still not arrived yet. I just reached out to DMC about my package being stuck at a certain step of transportation and they basically said "it's been 5 days bro chill out" in kinder words.

I hope yours gets there by the end of the day. Sending good mojo your way!
 
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tartvinegar

Student
Feb 14, 2025
152
It's weird that all our packages made it to the US but then got stuck at the sorting facility. It makes me think they've caught on and we're going to get a welfare check any minute now
 
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Skylar6

Member
Feb 11, 2025
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Today was suppose to be the day I ctb, I have all my stuff prepared except for benzos (which I couldn't get) and SN (still stuck in transit)

My plan was to ctb before the 28th which is when I'm officially fired. I'm mad at USPS for throwing a wrench in that plan.

I'm just tired, depressed and in pain. I already had 2 suicide attempts, unsuccessful. I just want to find peace.
Same. I can't face the problems I have. Am supposed to be gone today. Thought I had figured out how, but could not get it right no matter how many times I tried. I just want to go to sleep and not wake up.
 
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tartvinegar

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Feb 14, 2025
152
They just announced my firing, I was hoping to avoid this humiliation by ctb before then.

It's just so tiring and such a battle. Nothing but bad things and bad news happens. It's just time to go.
 
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