Painless_end
Life is too difficult for me
- Oct 11, 2019
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I am 31 years old. My mind and my biological impulses are often at odds with each other.
My mind tells itself, you have to die. I (a part of me ?) Agrees wholeheartedly. The disgrace of living like me is too much. The pain caused to my parents because of how I am is also another factor. But whenever my mind strays too far into seeking methods to die, my survival instinct holds me back.
I know I am just a biologically useless person, but that is apparently not enough to convince my own mind (subconscious part ?) That I should die.
My mind tells itself, you have to die. I (a part of me ?) Agrees wholeheartedly. The disgrace of living like me is too much. The pain caused to my parents because of how I am is also another factor. But whenever my mind strays too far into seeking methods to die, my survival instinct holds me back.
I know I am just a biologically useless person, but that is apparently not enough to convince my own mind (subconscious part ?) That I should die.
