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nayomi

nayomi

only the truth will save us all
Jul 19, 2026
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yesterday i vaped some weed and felt my will to live so strongly but then i started to remember why it is not enough for me.
i feel like there isnt something in life that i am willing to carry any pain.
my will to death is because of pain and i dont want to cope with any amount of pain , probably cant prevent it. on the other hand there is no reason for me to carry it.

i guess life will needs for find a reason to carry pain or i can find a way to not feel it? maybe just as the functional use of it and not the emotional pain lvl
 
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timf

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Mar 26, 2020
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There is a saying, "Time heals all wounds". This captures the idea that pain is not something that needs to be "carried" or that lasts. If pain can fade, it should be possible to find ways to accelerate it so that it can fade faster.
 
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WPeregrine

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Jul 22, 2026
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The concept of pleasure is meaningless, without the concept of pain. So if you want to experience pleasure, you've also got to accept the possibility of pain. If you avoid pain at all cost, you will avoid pleasure as well.

Suffering (enduring pain) is unnecessary though, and it can be minimized with the right awareness, which is what therapy aims to do (if you find a good therapist), as well as most spiritual practices.

Pain is an inevitable part of life. But you don't need to "carry" that pain, in the form of sustained suffering. If you can avoid that, life might be worth living. I'm not sure I've quite tackled this myself tbh, but I'm doing a lot better than 10 years ago.
 
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nayomi

only the truth will save us all
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There is a saying, "Time heals all wounds". This captures the idea that pain is not something that needs to be "carried" or that lasts. If pain can fade, it should be possible to find ways to accelerate it so that it can fade faster.
i dont have much wounds


The concept of pleasure is meaningless, without the concept of pain. So if you want to experience pleasure, you've also got to accept the possibility of pain. If you avoid pain at all cost, you will avoid pleasure as well.

Suffering (enduring pain) is unnecessary though, and it can be minimized with the right awareness, which is what therapy aims to do (if you find a good therapist), as well as most spiritual practices.

Pain is an inevitable part of life. But you don't need to "carry" that pain, in the form of sustained suffering. If you can avoid that, life might be worth living. I'm not sure I've quite tackled this myself tbh, but I'm doing a lot better than 10 years ago.
i dont agree that there isnt pleasure without pain..
anyawy there isnt anything i want to do in life, i just wanna end it even if i have great life
 
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