Ctb at your lowest or before?

[noname223]

If you think your life will probably end in suicide anyway would you rather wait or do it as quick as possible. I observed if I come close to suicide my depression becomes way worse. And if my depression becomes worse i come closer to suicide. To overcome SI it needs a lot of pain and I think i will wait and do it when I am at the lowest. Other people say they would not do it at their lowest rather before. For me I have drawn red lines. A plan what to do if things get worse. This gives me a feeling of safety. Do you plan to do it at your lowest?

 

[WornOutLife]

I was planning to ctb before my 30s because I wanted to die with a "young body".
Still, here I am, I'm 33.
I guess I gotta wait until my depression and bipolar disorder get worse so that I have the guts to do it.

 

[lofticries]

I plan to ctb when I literally have nothing else to live for. That means my parents dying and touching old age by the tips of my fingers. I don't plan on having irl friends, kids, or a husbland/boyfriend. I wanna leave nothing behind in this world when i exit it.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I think I'm going to get pushed by some external events in order to do it, and that my mood won't be a factor.

 

[nolongerhuman]

I want to die on a comparatively good day just because it would really suck to be horribly miserable on your last day on earth. It would take a major unfortunate life circumstance to make my depression worse than it already is so I'm not too concerned about waiting for it to get worse.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I want to die on a comparatively good day just because it would really suck to be horribly miserable on your last day on earth.

But at the same time it would feel extra nice to get the fuck out of here if it's a bad day. I wouldn't feel it due to anhedonia, but others lol.

 

[BigNarkoleptic]

If I had a gun there would be cartridges all around me so, no I wouldn't wait, but if I could go to a theme park before and get wasted then yeah sure lets wait for a day