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its impossible

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Oct 24, 2020
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crying hysterically when drunk

with horrible visualizations of how the future will be , in my mind

whats the cause of this?
 
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Steamm

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Depression.
 
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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
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Yes, It's depression and that sadness about the uncertain future.
In my case, alcohol is the only thing that helps. It makes me forget about this sh**y reality and laugh.
 
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its impossible

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Oct 24, 2020
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Yes, It's depression and that sadness about the uncertain future.
In my case, alcohol is the only thing that helps. It makes me forget about this sh**y reality and laugh.

i dont know how to handle this pain

i was crying and hyperventilating while visualizing how id die alone
 
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Alcohol reduces inhibition, so all the constrained emotion can come out.
 
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I want to end it

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Apr 29, 2018
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I found that alcohol exaggerates any mood/feelings I'm currently experiencing. So if I'm sad, I feel even sadder.
 
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Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
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i dont know how to handle this pain

i was crying and hyperventilating while visualizing how id die alone
Some of us have bad reactions to alcohol. I only have one drink now.
 
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darksideofthebright

darksideofthebright

Check in on your happy friend
Nov 10, 2020
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Not sure about others but I'm in different moods with different types of alcohol. But overall, alcohol can bring out certain emotions and bring your attention to them more than usual. Remember to stay hydrated as you're drinking as it helps calm down the effects of alcohol.
 
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stevieu

stevieu

~ Sleepwalking through every day ~
Feb 10, 2020
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Feeling 'drunk'/'tipsy' seems to make my thought processes flow more freely and clearly - like a flood gate has opened. I know inhibitions are reduced, but I feel more 'level' after a few strong beers.

My therapist says I will be able to feel that way when sober, but that's an ongoing process.
 
Pookie

Pookie

Somebody you used to know.
Oct 18, 2020
1,051
Yes, It's depression and that sadness about the uncertain future.
In my case, alcohol is the only thing that helps. It makes me forget about this sh**y reality and laugh.
Alcohol is a depressant unfortunately. It makes you forget temporarily but it worsens depression long-term.
 
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WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
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Alcohol is a depressant unfortunately. It makes you forget temporarily but it worsens depression long-term.
So true! Every hangover gets worse and worse!
Anyway, it's my only consolation until my final day. (21st of Jan, possibly)
 
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x~Sophia~x

x~Sophia~x

Always give 100% - unless you’re donating blood.
Sep 10, 2020
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The cause, is of course, the alcohol.
Too much alcohol is a depressant, so however many antidepressants you're taking, the alcohol is causing the medication to fail.
 

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