Confession

[virginiawoolf86]

I'm visiting with my psychiatrist in about 20 mins. I'm debating whether or not to tell her how I've been actually feeling. There's no cure or treatment for Cotard's delusion. I'm worried that if I tell her, she'll send me to a hospital. Which, I've done in the past, and it hasn't helped at all. I just want this pain to be over. I want to die. No one should ever have to suffer what I've been suffering from. I want that option. And in a hospital, I don't have that option.

Any thoughts on what I should do?

 

[Ghost2211]

You can openly talk about suicidality as long you don't talk about plan or intent. It can help to talk about struggling with being alive. I'm sorry you're suffering so much.

 

[not4us]

What are your symptoms?

 

[virginiawoolf86]

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What are your symptoms?

Feeling like I'm dead. Like I've lost my soul. Like I'm harboring decay and death. Like a part of my brain has died.

You can openly talk about suicidality as long you don't talk about plan or intent. It can help to talk about struggling with being alive. I'm sorry you're suffering so much.

Thank you, RoseyBird. I've been dealing with this for almost a year. No medications seem to help. I've tried to socialize and be active, but everyday I feel like I've died.