I found out today that a colleague (who I didn't know very well at all) killed herself yesterday. So now I'm seeing the impact on everyone left behind to pick up the pieces. It makes me feel so guilty that I could have put people through that, but at the same time it makes me want to go too. It also means there's going to be a lot of talk about it. Everytime I remember, it feels like my stomach is going to fall out. Oh and my mental health team haven't responded to my two calls today. Venting done.
-
UK users: Due to a formal investigation into this site by Ofcom under the UK Online Safety Act 2023, we strongly recommend using a trusted, no-logs VPN. This will help protect your privacy, bypass censorship, and maintain secure access to the site. Read the full VPN guide here.
-
Hey Guest,
Today, OFCOM launched an official investigation into Sanctioned Suicide under the UK’s Online Safety Act. This has already made headlines across the UK.
This is a clear and unprecedented overreach by a foreign regulator against a U.S.-based platform. We reject this interference and will be defending the site’s existence and mission.
In addition to our public response, we are currently seeking legal representation to ensure the best possible defense in this matter. If you are a lawyer or know of one who may be able to assist, please contact us at [email protected].
Read our statement here:
Donate via cryptocurrency:
Bitcoin (BTC): 34HyDHTvEhXfPfb716EeEkEHXzqhwtow1LEthereum (ETH): 0xd799aF8E2e5cEd14cdb344e6D6A9f18011B79BE9Monero (XMR): 49tuJbzxwVPUhhDjzz6H222Kh8baKe6rDEsXgE617DVSDD8UKNaXvKNU8dEVRTAFH9Av8gKkn4jDzVGF25snJgNfUfKKNC8
BaconCheeseburger
Comfort-eating
- Aug 4, 2018
- 693
I felt like this when my friend died. The funeral and seeing everyone there was what really freaked me out. I still think of her most days and her passing is something I reflect on when I consider my own existence. The initial shock is hard, not sure what else to say but it does ease with time x
helpmehelpme
self and collective help
- Jan 25, 2020
- 76
Been there; worked in a place where two coworkers committed suicide. Best to you in processing, finding relief.
Soulless_Angel
existence is futile
- Jul 10, 2019
- 2,225
I only know of one person who has CTBd, within a week she was forgotten and never really mentioned again by bar 2 or 3 people, her funeral had one half a dozen or so there.
It was almost like no one cared.
It was almost like no one cared.
I_love_to_bake
Student
- Feb 27, 2020
- 167
This will be me for sure
Chiyuki99
a nightmare dressed like a daydream
- May 28, 2019
- 140
the box is empty
Sometimes the fall kills you. Sometimes you fly.
- Mar 8, 2020
- 356
I think it's because of the circumstances of her death. I've had coworkers and colleagues die and we talk about them time to time. I've had a school mate die and no one brings him up because he CTB'd. It's more taboo.
Doormat
Life is never so bad that it can't get any worse
- May 22, 2020
- 86
I also lost a colleague to suicide. He was a brilliant doctor and a valued friend. Although we all knew about his depression, it was still shocking when he died. We still talk about him years later - he was a real loss. I know his death had a real impact on me but it's hard to talk about the depth as I wasn't family or a close friend. I sometimes think that we aren't "allowed" to grieve for some people because we aren't in the close circle and I believe that it delays recovery. Does that make sense?
Lemme know if you do decide to CTB, I'll come to the funeral and bring friends from here.
That's very sad, I hope you're doing ok, and that your colleague is resting in peace.
Personally I wouldn't ctb without quitting my job first. But I work retail and I don't have a relationship with any of my coworkers. So I know if I ctb, they'd just say, "ok, now who will cover these shifts?" and life will go on.
In a way it's kind of heartless, but how much can you care for someone who's not a big figure in your life? At the same time, a person's presence can affect a lot. You notice their absence, whether in a mourning, upset way or whether you simply view it as a personal inconvenience. People matter, but at the same time they don't, if that makes sense. It's a weird thing about life I guess
Personally I wouldn't ctb without quitting my job first. But I work retail and I don't have a relationship with any of my coworkers. So I know if I ctb, they'd just say, "ok, now who will cover these shifts?" and life will go on.
In a way it's kind of heartless, but how much can you care for someone who's not a big figure in your life? At the same time, a person's presence can affect a lot. You notice their absence, whether in a mourning, upset way or whether you simply view it as a personal inconvenience. People matter, but at the same time they don't, if that makes sense. It's a weird thing about life I guess
I hear that. It's sad, but in a way it's necessary for this brutal world. Whether it's evolutionary or a given trait, whatever anyone believes in, it was a needed programming for this world to function and advance for humans to be able to move on and forget.
