Codependency

[notenough86]

Venting
I shoved all my emotions down so I could take care of others. I only feel at peace if the people around me are happy with me. I will take a day to rest and I can hear him say (in my head) is your house is filthy. We didn't raise you like this. Its embarrassing even typing that out. I am 36 years old. I am married. I take care of of shit. But I freeze with any decisions...have to have approval from him. If I feel like he disapproves of something that I chose or did or did not do..my peace is destroyed. This is more like a diary entry. Smh

 

[Regen]

i can understand that it's terrible. one's own self is completely lost. I was in a very bad relationship for 16 years, I never thought I would make it out. but i'm free now it's not always easy, but it's so much better than being with him. meetings help me, co-dependence anonymous. I wasn't ready for it before, it took me a long time to try it again, but now it helps to attend the meetings. I wish you lots of strengh!

 

[notenough86]

i can understand that it's terrible. one's own self is completely lost. I was in a very bad relationship for 16 years, I never thought I would make it out. but i'm free now it's not always easy, but it's so much better than being with him. meetings help me, co-dependence anonymous. I wasn't ready for it before, it took me a long time to try it again, but now it helps to attend the meetings. I wish you lots of strengh!

Thank you.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are going through this, life really is so cruel and unfair. I can imagine that it must be awful being in that situation. I hope that you find relief from your suffering.