catching up

[abruptum]

just checking in my psychosis is awful, thinking straight doesn't happen and hasn't happened for the last couple weeks. i want to be happy and have a lot to be great full for but i can't imagine an outcome where the battle inside me doesn't lead to my death. it's weird because i'm scared yet accepting at the same time. i feel so alone yet i feel bound to this world by the connection of people

i think i've come to the perception right now that the purpose of life is to expierence living and i guess if my experience is bad it doesn't matter as long as i live it, and then if i'm going to live life i have to find ways of dealing with purpose meaning and that confusing shit


anyways this is all over the place but yeah just genuinely i am confused in life and my thoughts clearly are too

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are struggling. Life really is tiring. I wish you the best.