Put some music on, drink the SN, and the next twenty minutes will feel like the longest twenty minutes in my life. Close my eyes for the last time and think "I am okay with this."
The final, most significant act of self-determination I'll do. I can only hope it'll be that peaceful. I just want my exit from this cruel, awful reality already.
SN comes in six days. Probably won't have the will when it arrives, and my SN will drag this meaningless struggle out for a few more months. Extremely upsetting how every logical part of me can want to leave but instinct gets in the way.
The final, most significant act of self-determination I'll do. I can only hope it'll be that peaceful. I just want my exit from this cruel, awful reality already.
SN comes in six days. Probably won't have the will when it arrives, and my SN will drag this meaningless struggle out for a few more months. Extremely upsetting how every logical part of me can want to leave but instinct gets in the way.
