cant live in the culture my generation is shaping

[rei00]

everyone, every normie, every little teen, knows about facial deformities and looksmaxing terms now. i cant go to college, im not smart enough and i only have my ged, there's no way for me to make enough money to fix my face. even if i could make money, my face and head are unfixable.

im a young woman, 20years old, and i cut off all of my friends when i was 14 because it hurt when they'd call me ugly or take photos of me to make fun of me or take photos with me to make themselves look better. from an observers view, i had a rich social life but to me it was more suffering than anything else.
no man has ever approached me, no man has ever taken interest in me, no one will hire me, no one will look me in the eyes when they talk to me, people take videos of me out of their cars and laugh at me when im walking outside, girls and women will see me and then whisper to their friends.
i do everything available to me to conform socially: i brush my hair and keep my hair healthy, i shower everyday, i do skincare and makeup, i dress similarly to the women in my area (wasps), i've even been working on my gait. no matter what i do, the stares and looks of disgust never end.

i wanted to be a mother so badly when i was a kid that i was truly just waiting to be an adult. but since i turned 14, treatment has got worse every year and i dont see it getting any better from anything i could possibly do. i have a face only my mother can love.

my sister found love but she takes it for granted by serial cheating. she has hemifacial microsomia and it wasn't diagnosed until she was 3 because doctors in kansas couldnt figure out what it was. our aunt was the first to tell my mom that there's something wrong, after my mom had already taken her to the doctor because she had a floating bone protruding inside of her mouth.
i look similar to minor cases of hemifacial microsomia (im undiagnosed) except i also have malar/maxillary hypoplasia (undiagnosed), structurally hollow temples And a masculine brow ridge. my face is worse than my sisters despite the fact that her diagnosed deformity is very very noticeable. she has an excuse for looking that way, i dont. i have no diagnosed deformities, i was just born insanely ugly. my only good feature is my nose and a lot of people would say i've ruined it with my septum piercing. my piercing is just barely helping my weirdly long philtrum. thats why i got it, not because i like piercings.
people online say women cant be so ugly that they cant find love or sex but i literally cant. im thin but men irl just assume im trans until i speak. there arent even male escorts for females who are involuntarily celibate like there are for males. i dont live in an area where there are any escorts but i could travel 40 miles to see a gay male escort. im scared of stds, sti's, and being refused because im not male.

ive never really wanted to kill myself, i love the world unlike a lot of suicidal people, i just hate living in it as who i am. even people online tell me to kill myself when they see my face unfrauded. there's nothing for me in this world, there's no possibility for fulfillment. this is platos rational suicide hahahahahaha

i wish natural selection hadn't failed to prevent my birth because now i have to take it into my own hands.
possibly the worst part is that this is internet culture which bleeds into real life. it's not a regional culture or something i can escape by going to a different country or whatever

 

[Grasp of darkness]

We are our own worst critics. I'm sure you have good reasons to believe you're ugly, but even if you're ugly you likely make yourself out to be even worst.
Additionally, ugly people are not automatically excluded from finding love. Even Lizzie Velasquez is engaged since last year and she is literally voted to be the worlds ugliest woman.

I'm very much into the science of looksmaxxing myself, but it is important to realise that we are not only superficial.
Continue trying to make the best of your looks and if people still don't like you then screw them.

 

[flowersinanhour]

you have to understand that beauty is 100% subjective. there are so many of us that don't fit into this unbelievably strict standard. I'm older gen z and it's incredibly hard watching my peers and the kiddos absolutely struggling due to these made up rules about beauty. always remember, there is more than one way to be beautiful. there's beauty in as rose, just as there is beauty in a lily or a carnation. wishing you love and that you see your beauty within.


edit: that doesn't change how ugly our world is becoming. I just hope this can help you find a bit of relief within.

 

[name2come]

There is a great deal of cruelty in this world and I know that contributes to my own decision to CTB. I see how casual people have gotten with being mean and vile and it has depleted a lot of hope I used to have for the world. At the same time, I know there is still a world out there where people aren't so mean about everything. Looking different or ugly is just a thing. It doesn't have to close all doors. I understand getting to those places can take time and some people never really get there. Or they internalize the hate so much they wind up always living with it. My partner ended up doing that and it breaks my heart. Me telling her she is beautiful will never be felt because too many people told her she wasn't before I got here. I hate that I have to lose to all those awful, rotten people. I wish things were different. I hope you can manage to find a way through the cruelty, but I know hoping for that can't make it so. You don't deserve the cruelty that has met you. It isn't right and I'm sorry you've been treated that way.

 

[Manfrotto99]

Cosmetic procedures can change people's faces and make anyone ugly into someone attractive - it may not even take much money. You already have a nice nose so you don't need to worry about that. Try to make the most of what you have got - you can change your body composition by working out at the gym. Looks are very important but it's not all about just having a beautiful face...there are other ways of being and feeling attractive. Having confidence is one of them...maybe find some role models online who aren't stereotypical beauties and learn from them.

Back in my day it was all about being blonde have having long legs. If you were short with dark hair like myself - you may as well forget it! Though it's hard for young women now days, at least I thnik there is a bit more variety around and people can follow different trends that define beauty standards - try to find the one that suits you best.