Venting cant talk to people, but cant live without talking to people

[graqq]

finding friends online is incredibly hard and you have to be pretty lucky. it feels like there are no good places for me to find friends online. every place needs you to be like confident and extroverted which is not about me. the only more or less easy place for me that i found was tiktok, but most people looking there for friends are much younger(im 19)

talking with a stranger is very scary because you have no idea what to expect and how to behave. for me its much easier to start with text, then if the person is nice we can start spending time on a call.
trying to keep a non-awkward atmosphere, to come up with something to do or to talk about is way too hard and feels forced.

im very shy and reserved, and the type of person that i would like to befriend, also probably would be someone like that, which makes it even harder. to be comfortable spending time with the person you need to have similar interests which also makes the odds smaller.

if i wont spend time with a close friend in like a day or so my mood gets incredibly bad. i used to have such a friend but he decided to find a new and bigger friend's group and get further from me, so i cant talk with him now on some personal stuff and spend time together, which is ruining my mood lately.
ive been thinking about ctb a year and a half ago, but then i found the good friend that i talked about earlier and ctb was still on my mind but the will was very much less, now ive been thinking more about it again because i dont have any close friends now.

also theres no way of me finding irl friends because im from a very small country, in a very small town, and everyone here is a jerk. also there are no places where you can meet someone.

 

[bbeb0bc7b]

Hey, saw that you also posted in the megathread. Feel free to msg me if you want to talk, ill be happy to when i have the time

 

[interna]

hi!! could you pm me? i tried sending u a pm but it wont let me..... q_q

 

[FF777]

i like using chat room types of things to talk to people and find friends.. i guess most people use discord, so you can use that i guess.. i like boycotting stuff and so i don't use discord and just use some weird platform called Matrix.. but yeah, i've used chat rooms my whole life and it is my main and favorite way of communicating with people on the internet, so you can try to find some chat room platform if you want and see how you like it..

 

[passthisnote]

finding friends online is incredibly hard and you have to be pretty lucky. it feels like there are no good places for me to find friends online. every place needs you to be like confident and extroverted which is not about me. the only more or less easy place for me that i found was tiktok, but most people looking there for friends are much younger(im 19)

talking with a stranger is very scary because you have no idea what to expect and how to behave. for me its much easier to start with text, then if the person is nice we can start spending time on a call.
trying to keep a non-awkward atmosphere, to come up with something to do or to talk about is way too hard and feels forced.

im very shy and reserved, and the type of person that i would like to befriend, also probably would be someone like that, which makes it even harder. to be comfortable spending time with the person you need to have similar interests which also makes the odds smaller.

if i wont spend time with a close friend in like a day or so my mood gets incredibly bad. i used to have such a friend but he decided to find a new and bigger friend's group and get further from me, so i cant talk with him now on some personal stuff and spend time together, which is ruining my mood lately.
ive been thinking about ctb a year and a half ago, but then i found the good friend that i talked about earlier and ctb was still on my mind but the will was very much less, now ive been thinking more about it again because i dont have any close friends now.

also theres no way of me finding irl friends because im from a very small country, in a very small town, and everyone here is a jerk. also there are no places where you can meet someone.

i feel u especially on the irl part im very disconnected from my local area's culture and even my own ethnic culture now that i rlly think abt it cuz i watch anime and like to stay inside but most people my age where i live like to party and go out and connect with the ethnic culture

 

[graqq]

hi!! could you pm me? i tried sending u a pm but it wont let me..... q_q

hi. probably because i dont have enough messages, i cant pm you either. in the "make a friend megathread" i linked my discord but moderators edited it out, but i wish you can get it in this message since it replied to mine before discord was edited out. if something goes wrong you can reply to me here again i guess.

Hey, saw that you also posted in the megathread. Feel free to msg me if you want to talk, ill be happy to when i have the time

hi, if you want you can check my previous message here.