Venting Can't believe I'm still alive

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I think I'm enduring a lot. These could be my last week. I'm losing my mind and every day ctb thoughts get stronger. I'm on the edge just need to be pushed (by myself). I'm so tired of living. This seems like a nightmare.

Dust

 

[Lostnotfound]

Here if you need to vent x

 

[Responsibleresident]

Finding suicide method is hard. Many do not work. Perhaps expensive methods work better. The fear of failure is strong problem for poor methods. All are painful.

 

[selfhater]

i feel ur pain *hug*

 

[LMLN]

I'm so sorry. We understand here.

 

[ctbUniquectb]

Breh, I thought I wouldn't make it to 20 from Iraq. I'm 33 now. I'm not one upping you. I'm empathizing. It's been a tiring 13 years. I hope you get better, whichever path you select.

 

[s1mplem3]

Feel same way, just can't believe it. I don't mind to chat if you want.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I'm sorry life is so bad for you. I hope somehow it gets better.

 

[theguineapigking]

I totally get it. I need to push myself over the edge too. That's exactly the same way that I think about it. I need something to upset me a lot then tell myself to just "do it". If it wasn't for my family..

If you need to talk,I'm here. We all are actually. Others have even offered to chat! I hope things get less painful for you one way or "another".

Sending my best wishes :)

 

[AlreadyGone]

OP, I completely agree. I can't believe I am still here as well.

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear that you are still suffering and yeah, I had times where I asked myself the same question too. I think it has something to do with the SI and also not feeling 100% ready, hesitation and what not.