Can I just try it?

[toxicjester]

The pills I was going to use to ctb initially got taken a while ago

I have access to a small gun that takes .22 short
The problem is that its
Really small
Like fits in the palm of my hand small
I saw a video of a guy shooting the gun to like showcase it and it couldn't even knock down the can or bottle or whatever

But today was really really horrible and I just don't think I can do it anymore

Is there any chance in hell I could just use it? Idk, I could put it in my mouth and try to angle it to destroy my brain stem but it might just get stuck and leave me paralyzed or braindesd
But if I'm brain dead it'd be fine maybe my consciousness wouldn't even be here anymore??
I just can't take it every time I'm sad it feels like a heart attack and work has become more and more stressful and I haven't showered in weeks and I have no one no one no one
I just want my seal mama
I wanna be baby seal
If I do this I'll see mama again
I'll be baby forever

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Idk, Baby Seal, I'd be careful with that .22. I assume that if angled perfectly, it could work. But a while ago I was chatting with someone who had an uncle (who was already on the older side) who tried to CTB with a .22. Apparently, he angled it so wrong (through the mouth) that it missed his brain completely & came out at the top of the sinuses… and he lived 10 more years after that. That doesn't sound like a very good fate for a baby seal to me, so if I were you I'd consider this very carefully before making any permanent decisions.

 

[toxicjester]

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Idk, Baby Seal, I'd be careful with that .22. I assume that if angled perfectly, it could work. But a while ago I was chatting with someone who had an uncle (who was already on the older side) who tried to CTB with a .22. Apparently, he angled it so wrong (through the mouth) that it missed his brain completely & came out at the top of the sinuses… and he lived 10 more years after that. That doesn't sound like a very good fate for a baby seal to me, so if I were you I'd consider this very carefully before making any permanent decisions.

I appreciate your reply and that story, horrible that the uncle just completely missed it sounds like it'd be agonizing :(
I ended up talking to a friend (who is also on sasu) and he helped me calm down about it without telling me straight up to not kill myself
I'm a little calmer now, still really sad but not splitting and I've driven back home
Little seal tired
Little seal bed