Broken

[Cherry xoxo]

I received my SN last week and I have everything I need but I've been so emotionally distraught one hand there's my pain which I'm just drowning in and can't handle anymore but on the other hand theres my family and the thought of leaving them or even trying to say goodbye breaks me.
I don't know what to do, everything hurts so much, I don't want to be a burden to anyone and tell them how I actually feel and what I've been going through.
My life is suffocating me but the guilt of hurting my family in this way is too much.

All my life whenever things got hard if run away from the situation, for the first time in my life I fought so hard to get my life on track and where I needed to be but instead I just got screwed over, the one person who does know about what I'm going through makes me feel like a burden, he told me he will be there for me and help me get through this but when I need help his never there and keeps saying his busy

I just don't know what to do anymore, this is the lowest I've ever been and I don't see any way back

 

[FuneralCry]

This sounds like a difficult situation to be in, I'm sorry you are going through this. I see suicide as a pain cycle, to end our pain, it passes it on to other people. I understand it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. Whatever happens, I wish you the best. I hope you find peace.