Venting Broken

[VileLiquid]

Second post.

I didn't think it was possible for things to get worse after I lost my job. But my mother sent me a letter in the mail to let me know what a disappointing daughter I am. So that was fun.

The guy I was into that I mentioned on my previous post... I was trying to sleep with him more before CTB. No feelings attached, but I dont fuck strangers.

Well that blew up in my face. Today I flipped out on him. He used me. I'm worthless.

I'm so upset tonight with my feelings. Just so sad. Needed to vent.

Im scared to do it a little. But I've been planning. I don't want to feel like this anymore. 15 years of exhausting myself for someone else. Trying to better myself. Being betrayed. I can't anymore.

Time to make the purchases of what I need. It's time for me to go.

 

[TheRaul95]

Second post.

I didn't think it was possible for things to get worse after I lost my job. But my mother sent me a letter in the mail to let me know what a disappointing daughter I am. So that was fun.

The guy I was into that I mentioned on my previous post... I was trying to sleep with him more before CTB. No feelings attached, but I dont fuck strangers.

Well that blew up in my face. Today I flipped out on him. He used me. I'm worthless.

I'm so upset tonight with my feelings. Just so sad. Needed to vent.

Im scared to do it a little. But I've been planning. I don't want to feel like this anymore. 15 years of exhausting myself for someone else. Trying to better myself. Being betrayed. I can't anymore.

Time to make the purchases of what I need. It's time for me to go.

Sometimes wondering, what is the point of insisting something...

 

[FriendofDeath]

I'm really sorry to read so many things have sort of imploded for you. I can't get over the part about your mother sending you a letter. This is a really tough time in the great scheme of things. I know you're not worthless, though I can't say that about some people in your orbit. If you were hired for a dream job, would that change anything? One breath at a time.

I want you to know I hear you as well, and respect the way you are feeling.