Bpd

[Martyn]

Having bpd is just horrible can't hold any sort of relationship friendships hate being alone react badly to situations that we don't mean to but people genuinely think we are horrible when it's not our intention. 70% of us attempt suicide . Don't know what it's like for other mental illness but damn this is such a struggle

 

[Squiddy]

Yup. BPD sucks. I hate how attached I get to people

 

[GoBack]

I feel that the way I been treated since being diagnosed with this is as bad as the trauma that brought it on in the first place. I've lost everything I managed to hold on to all my life, family friends, my own morals and values, a goal for the future, the ability to take care of myself and others... the list is endless.

My family were told that I am manipulative as part of this "disease" so they stopped trusting me overnight, all my rights were taken away.

I never self harmed till I was bpd, now it's all I do

 

[disconnection]

I feel that the way I been treated since being diagnosed with this is as bad as the trauma that brought it on in the first place. I've lost everything I managed to hold on to all my life, family friends, my own morals and values, a goal for the future, the ability to take care of myself and others... the list is endless.

My family were told that I am manipulative as part of this "disease" so they stopped trusting me overnight, all my rights were taken away.

I never self harmed till I was bpd, now it's all I do

This is horrific that the label itself has caused you so much pain, I'm so sorry to hear it.

 

[enjolras]

Mr. Body: I can relate at the other side of the fence, since I've been "betrayed" by a BPD friend IRL, 1 week after he tried to hang. I was totally not expecting the move he did on me. It felt so out of context. I'm sure he meant no harm but I couldn't tolerate the concrete outcome resulting from his awkwardness so I cut the tie (I had been supporting him the weeks before, after he broke up with his long-term gf, testifying it's possible).

More reassuring, plenty of BPD sufferers on this board seem to be in relationships (more so than autistic ppl for instance), or have been before, assuming ...more or less... satisfactorily (not meaning to be compared to normal people but you know). Love affairs are a matter of circumstances. Ask Cinderella. Surely, it's ok to vent ! Just don't give up hope?

My own mental condition comes with drawbacks, but not zero benefit. It's principally a curse but also is defining. With BPD, are you all able to value any kind of blessing ? Whether or not it plays a role, my fav SS fellow (& more) has it apparently, which makes me believe there are more dimensions to print the qualities of a person than the mental health status.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I feel you. I have BPD and it is the absolute worst. One minute you feel "fine". Then one small trigger happens and you are already planing your suicide. You want someone to listen, but then your'e afraid of being hurt and so you push them away. And when they leave you want them again. And its a cycle that never ends and youre left with suicidal thoughts winning

 

[Calendar]

I don't have BPD, so I don't personally know your struggles. But I know it's a really difficult illness to deal with, and it's usually a result of really awful things. So I just want you to know I'm so sorry you deal with this, but I think you're incredibly strong to be fighting it. Lots of love to you. <3

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Thank you for replying. I dont see myself as strong however. All of my "strength" is wasted on surviving but I am unable to live

 

[Lostandfound7]

Prior to joining this forum, I was totally ignorant to bpd and how absolutely horrific it is..I can't even begin to imagine the toll it takes on the sufferer's entire life and how painful it is to endure..3 of my beloved sweets from here suffered with bpd (@K-O, @Ryan.s , and @Crushed_Innocence. Such beautiful, lovely souls...

My heart sincerely goes out to u @Martyn ..Sending u love and strength..♡♡♡