Help BPD pain

[butyouhavetotry]

Is this shit just forever? Is the best I can hope for making myself tolerable for other people? Holy fuck I try emotional negation exercises and distracting myself and monitoring my emotions and I can force myself to behave in a way that's more acceptable sometimes but it seems like everyone around me with this disease and pattern is stuck there no matter their material conditions. I feel stupid bc I know I'm being stupid and ruining it for myself and I'm my own worse enemy and then it happens. I know so many other people with BPD and they are impossible to deal with and in the back of my head I'm thinking damn just like me and it's like. I don't see any future for me when I have no control over my interior.

 

[Life_and_Death]

it can get better with work. i actually just asked my bf the other day if i was difficult or something like that and he said no.
its just about working with yourself and finding others that will understand its a struggle (not your fault) and work with you.