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[Somewhat Suicidal]

And then there's us: "Somehow two voices could be heard joyfully laughing amidst the ambient terror"

thanks for making me laugh, even just for 5s

776

So who will be in luck next?

 

[VanillaCake]

775

Not me!

 

[Somewhat Suicidal]

:(

776

 

[VanillaCake]

775

 

[Lowell]

774


I'm kind of 'new' to say, to put it in a way.

It's a somewhat curious story, given that I've been registered for nearly eight years...

 

[VanillaCake]

774


I'm kind of 'new' to say, to put it in a way.

It's a somewhat curious story, given that I've been registered for nearly eight years...

773

If you are ever interested to tell us, go ahead!

 

[Somewhat Suicidal]

I'm kind of 'new' to say, to put it in a way.

It's a somewhat curious story, given that I've been registered for nearly eight years...

If you are ever interested to tell us, go ahead!

I second VanillaCakes notion!

774

 

[Lowell]

773

If you are ever interested to tell us, go ahead!

773


Well... Everything happened 8 years ago, when I was looking for 'help' to achieve the 'goal' of ending all of this.

I found this place at a very bad time in my life, and after a very long search through the web. I found this place to be very peaceful, people here are very nice and comprehensive.

Besides that, at the time there was a very great thread for help. Some family and friends came 'to rescue' me at that time. So I ended doing nothing, and my plans where frustrated for some other reasons as well. I didn't know back then that some countries require permits to handle dangerous materials. (I know it could sound dumb) I was just really focused on reaching the end.

I remember that I bookmarked the site and saved it. I use to come here every now and then, because it make me feel safe and I liked to read the stories of others. But after a while I moved on and kept going.

I knew this place was here for me whenever I wanted to come back. At some point I tried to come back from my bookmark, but the site was gone. I was really sad since I thought I have lost my safe place.

Towards the years I keep searching for it, every once in a while. Until last year when I was looking to get some 'help' again, found it. I was so happy! And what made me happier is that my name was still here.

I know that I haven't been able to do what I really want to, and that the thread that was so helpful back in the day is long gone. But the nice people are still here, even knowing that some just hang out here for short periods of time. I feel relieved that I still can come here and feel peace.

Sorry if this story sounds kind of dumb, and is somewhat long. But this is what happened and I'm back now.

 

[Somewhat Suicidal]

Sorry if this story sound kind of dumb, and is somewhat long.

It's not at all, enjoyed reading it although I'm sorry life has brought you back to here at the same time.

774

 

[VanillaCake]

773


Well... Everything happen 8 years ago, when I was looking for 'help' to achieve the 'goal' of ending all of this.

I found this place at a very bad time in my life, and after a very long search through the web. I found this place te be very peaceful, people here are very nice and comprehensive.

Besides that, at the time there was a very great thread for help. Some family and friends came 'to rescue' me at that time. So I ended doing anything, and my plans where frustrated for some other reasons as well. I didn't know back then that some countries require permits to handle dangerous materials. (I know it could sound dumb) I was just really focused on reaching the end.

It isn't dumb. As you've said, you might've been so focused on ending it all that your mind couldn't focus on the technicals

I remember that I bookmarked the site and saved it. I use to come here every now and then, because it make me feel safe and I liked to read the stories of others. But after a while I moved on and kept going.

I knew this place was here for me whenever I wanted to come back. At some point I tried to come back from my bookmark, but the site was gone. I was really sad since I thought I have lost my safe place.

Towards the years I keep searching for it, every once in a while. Until last year when I was looking to get some 'help' again, found it. I was so happy! And what made me happier is that my name was still here.

I know that I haven't been able to do what I really want to, and that the thread that was so helpful back in the day is long gone. But the nice people are still here, even knowing that some just hang out here for short periods of time. I feel relieved that I still can come here and feel peace.

You're always welcomed I've found sasu to be a pretty open-minded and gentle community.
I'm unsure which thread you're talking about (arrived a tad later than you after all) but you should definitely try to interact on here! If you're interested in recovery, the section is filled with people trying their best to help eachother out.

Sorry if this story sound kind of dumb, and is somewhat long. But this is what happened and I'm back now.

It didn't sound dumb at all. And it wasn't that long don't worry!
Well, welcome back

773

 

[NoPoint2Life]

772

 

[Lowell]

It isn't dumb. As you've said, you might've been so focused on ending it all that your mind couldn't focus on the technicals

You're always welcomed I've found sasu to be a pretty open-minded and gentle community.
I'm unsure which thread you're talking about (arrived a tad later than you after all) but you should definitely try to interact on here! If you're interested in recovery, the section is filled with people trying their best to help eachother out.

It didn't sound dumb at all. And it wasn't that long don't worry!
Well, welcome back

773

771


Thank you! I'm glad to be here once again.

I'm not sure if my point is looking for salvation, since my thoughts haven't change at all. But I'm still hanging in this world.

It's not at all, enjoyed reading it although I'm sorry life has brought you back to here at the same time.

774

No! Please. Do not feel sorry at all, even if I still think the same way as 8 years ago, and the last 22 years. Is not a bad thing. I know it sad that some good people here just stay for a short time, but it is always good to find some great people even at the end of this life.

So, thank you! Thanks for making me feel welcomed again

 

[VanillaCake]

771


Thank you! I'm glad to be here once again.

I'm not sure if my point is looking for salvation, since my thoughts haven't change at all. But I'm still hanging in this world.

Of course it's always sad to see the need for people to come here in the first place... I'm sorry your thoughts haven't changed but I can appreciate that you're still trying

No matter your choice, I believe that you won't be alone here. Is there anything that makes life a bit more worth living for you? Whether it be some people, animals, food, activities...

770

 

[Lowell]

769

Of course it's always sad to see the need for people to come here in the first place... I'm sorry your thoughts haven't changed but I can appreciate that you're still trying

No matter your choice, I believe that you won't be alone here. Is there anything that makes life a bit more worth living for you? Whether it be some people, animals, food, activities...

770

My main reason is that, I don't want to cause that pain to my family, and I'm scared to find a very painful death at the end. Even if I don't know how death will find me, it could be like that at the end in the natural way.

I love my family, and they really love me. I'm not really a nice person in general, but I still receive their love somehow.

 

[VanillaCake]

769


My main reason is that, I don't want to cause that pain to my family, and I'm scared to find a very painful death at the end. Even if I don't know how death will find me, it could be like that at the end in the natural way.

I love my family, and they really love me. I'm not really a nice person in general, but I still receive their love somehow.

You seem extra-harsh on yourself, you're probably nicer than you believe. So far you've been lovely to us here!
We all have our moments but I'm sure you're kinder than meaner overall

768

 

[Radiated]

767

 

[VanillaCake]

767

766

 

[Lowell]

You seem extra-harsh on yourself, you're probably nicer than you believe. So far you've been lovely to us here!
We all have our moments but I'm sure you're kinder than meaner overall

768

767

Thank you!

I just try my best on being a decent human being, even if it is hard. I try not to put it on others, I'm not really good at it since sometimes I lose it completely. But I do my best...

 

[VanillaCake]

767

Thank you!

I just try my best on being a decent human being, even if it is hard. I try not to put it on others, I'm not really good at it since sometimes I lose it completely. But I do my best...

766

I can definitely feel you're trying your best

 

[Somewhat Suicidal]

Please. Do not feel sorry at all, even if I still think the same way as 8 years ago, and the last 22 years. Is not a bad thing.

Didn't mean to say bad, but I'm still sad for every single person that feels like we do. That's what I feel sorry about. I would wish for all of us to find the happiness to live fulfilled lives full of love and sense of achievement. Sadly that seems impossible in most cases who find the way here.

Of course it's always sad to see the need for people to come here in the first place...

You seem extra-harsh on yourself, you're probably nicer than you believe. So far you've been lovely to us here!

Exactly. to both of these

So, thank you! Thanks for making me feel welcomed again

You're welcome


767

You girls starting a comeback here, hm?

 

[Lowell]

766

766

I can definitely feel you're trying your best

Thank you!
And thank you @Somewhat Suicidal

People like you are the reason why is pretty chill to be here, and in this world too.

 

[Somewhat Suicidal]

I'm not really good at it since sometimes I lose it completely. But I do my best...

I just lost it when sending an email for a warranty case and attaching photos of my surf neoprene suit didn't work as it should. Took me half an hour to do it. I feel utterly pathetic and dysfunctional as a human being

765

you probably meant to say 766?

767

 

[Lowell]

I just lost it when sending an email for a warranty case and attaching photos of my surf neoprene suit didn't work as it should. Took me half an hour to do it. I feel utterly pathetic and dysfunctional as a human being


you probably meant to say 766?

767

It got me while I was writing the answer... Lol

766

 

[VanillaCake]

765

 

[Lowell]

764

 

[VanillaCake]

763

 

[Somewhat Suicidal]

764

 

[VanillaCake]

763

 

[Somewhat Suicidal]

764 xD

 

[VanillaCake]

763