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Namelesa

Namelesa

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593 I am sacred for a mental health appointment thats coming soon
 
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valkyrie
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592 who's the appointment with? what kind of therapy do they do?
 
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591 its a "preparing for therapy appointment" finally after a long waiting. Only took them having social services to be called. I just worried its going to be a pointless waste of my time like most things I have been through tho there might be the possibility of a personality disorder diagnosis or them thinking I have one as they gave me info about it with the email I got for the appointment.
 
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valkyrie
May 11, 2025
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590 valid. I'm sorry you had to get social services involved. I can relate to worrying that therapy is going to be a pointless waste of time. I'm potentially starting a partial hospitalization program in a week, and I worry that's going to be a waste of time too. Are you gonna ask for dialectical behavioral therapy? I hear it's the gold standard for a lot of personality disorders. I'm sorry you're so nervous about the whole thing. Therapy can be scary sometimes.
 
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590 valid. I'm sorry you had to get social services involved. I can relate to worrying that therapy is going to be a pointless waste of time. I'm potentially starting a partial hospitalization program in a week, and I worry that's going to be a waste of time too. Are you gonna ask for dialectical behavioral therapy? I hear it's the gold standard for a lot of personality disorders. I'm sorry you're so nervous about the whole thing. Therapy can be scary sometimes.
DBT probably, especially as previously they suspected BPD and BPD was the only personality disorders named on the info page

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valkyrie
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588 yeah I think I'm going to be getting a lot of DBT for my BPD too. I hope it goes well for you. And you can tell them to kiss your pirate ASS if they treat you poorly :3

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hehehehehe thank you :3

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Namelesa

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I obviously wasn't paying attention hehehe. God its so tiring existing

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valkyrie
May 11, 2025
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I hate existing so much. Can we just bash on existing for a bit? It's such a painful way to be, and no one fucking asked for it.

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valkyrie
May 11, 2025
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582 and it's so hard to escape from! Lord knows I've tried my best, but it just sticks to you like glue. And the fatigue, goddam the fatigue. I just wish I could sleep forever.
 
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581 yep me too. I just feel like a lot of the time I just feel empty or too much pain and exhaustion. I am tired of this long ass life to wait for an ending. This is a game with so much filler that it puts games like Eden Ring to shame.
 
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valkyrie
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580 and I'm so sick of hurting people. I hate that I was born as a person who just seems destined to hurt everyone I talk to. And I hate that I seem to need to be able to talk to people all the same, so I just end up in this never-ending cycle of talk to someone, hurt them, and get rejected by them over and over again. I want my ending too.

As an aside, I never did play Elden Ring, just the first three Dark Souls game. Was it any good, or filled with too much filler?
 
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579 yep I am sick of being this being that desires connection and love when I am so fragile and emotional that I somehow keep making new mistakes with every person I try to talk to.

This is a controversial opinion but I think Elden Ring is the worst souls-like game from has made due it being too big and so much reuse of assets causing so much repetition. Honestly I feel like its made my depression worse and see more of the repetition in life.
 
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valkyrie
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578 it's kind of stunning how easy it is to make new mistakes with each new person. You would think that life would get bored eventually and just reuse the mistakes so you could learn, but no, there is no learning. Or the learning is useless. Only pain.

Oh that's so discouraging to hear. I hadn't played it because my chronic fatigue gets flared when I play from games now, but I was thinking of starting a new game because I need to dissociate as badly as I need to not feel fatigue. But if it's just a repetitive slog that makes it even easier to see the repetitive nature of life, then that's a hard pass from me.
 
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Yep.... It gets harder to fight of the self-hatred and guilt as time goes on form the more and more mistakes I do.

Yea Elden Ring kinda did that to me. Honestly has changed my whole perspective on games and how I make them cus I now I notice more similarities between games or sections in them and now with my game I am trying to make everything in it as unique as possible.

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valkyrie
May 11, 2025
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I just want to curl up in a ball and disappear. Why isn't that an option. I would give anything for that to be an option. Instead it's like you say: the self-hatred and guilt become all consuming and follow me everywhere I go. It's at the point where I feel like I need to protect people from myself, which is a horrible way to look at oneself. But it's true.

Oh that's so interesting. What sorts of things do you do to make your game sections unique?

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575 yea..... :<

A lot of it is cutting content or actions that are a bit samy to other content. Or things like each enemy has to totally unique attacks and each area had to be unique and have some new spin on gameplay mechanics
 
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Hi, sorry I got a call from one of the folks that was fired Friday.

It's amazing they all call me to talk...me the suicidal domestic victim is a resource!
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Hi, sorry I got a call from one of the folks that was fired Friday.

It's amazing they all call me to talk...me the suicidal domestic victim is a resource!
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its okie ^^

well sadly the irony is that often people who suffered most, can be the kindest.

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valkyrie
May 11, 2025
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Do you need new gameplay mechanics to navigate new areas most of the time? I'm thinking of Dark Souls and that like never happens, except maybe with Sen's Fortress. Is there a favorite enemy you've designed so far?

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And @Redacted24 they probably call you because of your experience and your humor and your care :3
 
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Redacted24

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But I think I'll take a break and be a veg

Good night ladies, I enjoy our time together.
Keep being amazing! :heart:
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valkyrie
May 11, 2025
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Good night to you too! And I'm not amazing, not even a little, but I'm glad you think so.

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Namelesa

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Do you need new gameplay mechanics to navigate new areas most of the time? I'm thinking of Dark Souls and that like never happens, except maybe with Sen's Fortress. Is there a favorite enemy you've designed so far?

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I don't know about navigating areas but each area has some sort of environmental thing that makes it unique. Not really sure about favorite enemy and I would be telling too much detail in public at this point if I said that.

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