biggest asshole

[depressedmaniac]

Anyone feel like the biggest asshole even on here? My diagonsis are "only" bpd and depression but shit.. The things I feel or say to others makes me feel like someone just very different. Sometimes I feel like I have antisocial but I never got the diagonsis. Im just soo angry and hate everyone soo much at times. Maybe I have antisocial aswell. sorry just some thoughts.

 

[Lullaby]

First of all, you're not an asshole at all, but I totally understand what you're saying.

Sometimes it gets really bad when I'm distressed, like today. I'm mostly just angry at myself but it gets me so irritable and I just wanna rage and it take it out on everything. I ended up deleting all of my social media apps today and put my phone on silent because I really didn't want to snap on anyone who doesn't deserve it.

 

[Al Cappella]

I "only" have the very same things, and too feel that, even here, I'm the biggest arsehole. Seriously. I lot of the time I just want to completely let people have it, and for the dumbest reasons. I don't, obviously. Sometimes I actually do have kind thoughts, but not very often. And ya, even here, I'm different, and think people can sense it…

 

[depressedmaniac]

too drunk to read. I spend my last money on 2 bottles of vodka and cigs. stupind hanging. N soo expensive. even sn. how will i keep that shit down. I puke easily. I HATE humans. I just hate them.

 

[depressedmaniac]

First of all, you're not an asshole at all, but I totally understand what you're saying.

Sometimes it gets really bad when I'm distressed, like today. I'm mostly just angry at myself but it gets me so irritable and I just wanna rage and it take it out on everything. I ended up deleting all of my social media apps today and put my phone on silent because I really didn't want to snap on anyone who doesn't deserve it.

thank you for sharing that. I am though an asshole. I know and I accept it. thx for your nice words!
since i am venting and i guess its okay me being annyoing.. I talk honest always. even to normal friends. I told many friends about me wanting to die and explained. they dont understand. soo i get sooo angry. I say mean things. hurtful. I dont mean to put this shit. its really not pretty. I use ppl to make me feel better. I devaule them if they dont satisfy my needs. im really not nice.