beginning of the end?

[abandonedSheep]

two days ago, i ordered my SN. it will take a month for it to arrive.

mental health professionals are very cruel. "friends" are not understanding. i'm running out of options.
if people knew how to use empathy, i wouldn't be pushed so hard into SN. feeling alienated and unsupported is one of the things that push people to suicide.

i don't even have the SN in my hands, yet, but making that order felt like a concrete step towards suicide, and has changed how i feel about life; it feels like i'm only now living to try to get to the point where i'm willing to drink that SN. i don't want to be alone as i go through this. i'm writing this post not exactly knowing what to say, but hoping that someone might say hello back to me , and welcome me to this community.

 

[Loneliest]

Hey you're not alone I understand how you feel. I was trying very hard at one point to get help but people who were supposed to have the knowledge to help weren't even interested. Now I just don't care anymore. You're always welcome to talk to me or I'm sure other members would be happy to too

 

[abandonedSheep]

Hey you're not alone I understand how you feel. I was trying very hard at one point to get help but people who were supposed to have the knowledge to help weren't even interested. Now I just don't care anymore. You're always welcome to talk to me or I'm sure other members would be happy to too

thank you for saying hello. actually, thanks for mentioning that you also have had difficulty finding help, and that people who were supposed to be trained weren't interested.

i feel betrayed and abandoned, consistantly, by mental health professionals who are supposed to help. the training is all solutions-focused and none on the empathy-based therapy that used to be the dominant training in the 60s and 70s. so i guess places like *here* is where i'm going for some support.

thanks for writing to me. maybe i'll find just a little bit of support on this forum.

 

[Loneliest]

thank you for saying hello. actually, thanks for mentioning that you also have had difficulty finding help, and that people who were supposed to be trained weren't interested.

i feel betrayed and abandoned, consistantly, by mental health professionals who are supposed to help. the training is all solutions-focused and none on the empathy-based therapy that used to be the dominant training in the 60s and 70s. so i guess places like *here* is where i'm going for some support.

thanks for writing to me. maybe i'll find just a little bit of support on this forum.

You're welcome There were a few years of my life where I was consistently seeing psychiatrists, therapists. I had changed quite a few but they all let me down. All they care about is just money they're getting from you but they don't take the time to actually hear you.

I had one doc who kept telling me, "You're the only one who can help yourself". Well doc if I could save myself, what was the point of me coming to see you? It's obviously because I needed someone to help me up when I was too deep in the mud. Or they just kept trying to feed me sleeping pills or Xanax so that I could sleep my suicidal thoughts off.

I think it's tough to get someone who doesn't struggle with mental illness to understand where you're coming from.

 

[FuneralCry]

This life can be exhausting and other people really can let us down. Many people have had those types of experiences with professionals. I'm sorry you have had to deal with this. I wish you well, I know how hard this life can be.