Bedbound depression.

[GreenTree]

Does anyone find it hard to leave their bed. Like stay in it all day. It's a horrible existence. It takes me every ounce of strength to get up. Get up for cigarettes that's about it.

 

[Nanako]

That's how it's been for me. It's bad because I should be using that time to plan my suicide, but I feel so tired and awful that I lack the energy/brain power to do it.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me, sometimes it can be very difficult to get out of bed. There is nothing that I want to get up for. I do not want to have to experience life at all, consciousness can be torture. I do not have any energy for anything, I want to sleep forever.

 

[SomeoneDutch]

I experience the same every day. I don't actually have the energy to do even the most simple things. It also limits me in making appropriate steps for my plans. Just don't have the energy for anything whatsoever. I feel like it's been like this since I got on anti depressants again. I'm alive, but not really living.

 

[TheSoulless]

Can't remember the last time I was happy to wake up.

 

[Apathy's Girl]

I had to call in sick to work for a mental health day because I couldn't get out of bed. I finally did about 3pm because I had to walk and feed the dog.

 

[Chiisai]

Does anyone find it hard to leave their bed. Like stay in it all day. It's a horrible existence. It takes me every ounce of strength to get up. Get up for cigarettes that's about it.

I feel you. Its been almost a year for me.

 

[Z-bar]

Yup im in the thick of it myself as we speak. I get up for methadone and my usual psych med cocktail. I do spend time cleaning in the morning but by afternoon I just want to lay in bed and from about 1:00 to 2:00 on I do exactly that, lay in bed.
I am bipolar amongst other things so I get the full spectrum of mood swings up and down.
The depression stages last the longest with mania spurts every blue moon
I vape so I don't need to go outside to smoke. When I had a dog I was more into life and going on walks.
I love sleep.
It's why I want to ctb with N or something similar. I just want to drift off to sleep nice and peacefully thank you very much.

I hope you find peace no matter what.

 

[Feeding Pigeons]

I've been at this point for a short while. I've noticed sleep goes by so much faster now. Whether its natural or drug induced sleep, its like instantenous.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I feel you. Its been almost a year for me.

A year being in bed? Wow that is so awful. I'm so sorry you're in so much pain

 

[downndone2]

Same here, I manage to drag myself out to work and take care of the dogs, otherwise I'm in bed the majority of the time. Life has been absolute hell since 2019. I havent woken up one single day that I can recall being happy to be alive. Ugh

 

[Chiisai]

A year being in bed? Wow that is so awful. I'm so sorry you're in so much pain

No worries. Well lets just say im practicing for the real deal.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Well lets just say im practicing for the real deal.

I hear you, I'm preparing as well for the great sleep

 

[Kristicide]

If I didn't have my dog I would almost never leave my apartment. I try and get food and most supplies delivered. Sometimes I have to see certain docs in person and pick up certain meds from the pharmacy. If I have 1 thing to do on my plate - like putting away the clean dishes - it takes me all day cause I need a break after 10 seconds.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

i never had this problem when I lived in areas that are walkable. If it's a walkable community I can always find an excuse to get out

If it's a suburban sprawl hellscape where there is no where to walk without dodging cars going 40 mph then i do a lot more of this

 

[neverend]

I've been depressed since I was a kid. Sometimes I browse various mental health and depression forums/communities and realize that it really is that bad when I notice that I am much lower functioning than ~95% of the posts, and that this has been most of my life now. I feel so much shame that I struggle and feel too tired to even do basic tasks in daily life.