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[suisuiforum]

It is literally so annoying when every time there is a smidgen of hope, any sign that things might improve, the impending but inevitable downfall will soon follow. I am so over this incessant vacillation, and I should know better by now but this innate drive to live will delude me every time even when I rationally know that it'll all come crashing down eventually. It would've been so much easier if I was never brought into existence, never forced to contend with morality itself by remaining shrouded from the horrors of life. I wish I could also just conceptualize a plan and be done with it, but no, there are so many sticky situations to deal with and loose ends to tie up when I never asked for this in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

That is why I hate hope, it is painful when it is taken away. I am glad that everything is hopeless for me at this point. I wish I was never born, as life is so horrible and there is no limit as to how bad things can get. We were all perfectly fine not existing until we were forced to live. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

The upside is is at some point, you stop caring about even that and hope becomes a completely foreign concept.