• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block. If you're located in the UK, we recommend using a VPN to maintain access.

wehadsomanyplans2

wehadsomanyplans2

Goddamnit I tried!
Jul 19, 2024
7
Hi, I am attempting to catch the bus tonight. I'm using opioids, fentanyl/heroin and oxycodone. I took some gabapentin to kill my anxiety. Got drugs from the street in Philadelphia. I know this is all risky, but its the only shit I could get my hands on and I feel I am days away from being sent back to the hospital involuntarily, so I'm gonna at least give this shit a try. It feels like if I am gonna be stuck in hospitals for the rest of my life at least Im going down fighting. I'm sharing this in case its helpful to anyone else and will try to update on how it goes as much as I can. Thanks for reading this and being here with me. I wish you peace and freedom from suffering <3
Right now working on dissolving my heroin/fentanyl. Gonna take it rectally woo hoo!
Also gonna take metaclopromide 30mg and then 300mg oxycodone by mouth. Been fasting for ~9hrs
Got two "bundles" of fenty/heroin. Hoping/praying it is all enough.
 
Last edited:
  • Hugs
  • Like
  • Love
Reactions: LondonVillie, justwannadip, Lostsoul333 and 4 others
chobonzi

chobonzi

heartbroken
Apr 13, 2024
43
Hi, I am attempting to catch the bus tonight. I'm using opioids, fentanyl/heroin and oxycodone. I took some gabapentin to kill my anxiety. Got drugs from the street in Philadelphia. I know this is all risky, but its the only shit I could get my hands on and I feel I am days away from being sent back to the hospital involuntarily, so I'm gonna at least give this shit a try. It feels like if I am gonna be stuck in hospitals for the rest of my life at least Im going down fighting. I'm sharing this in case its helpful to anyone else and will try to update on how it goes as much as I can. Thanks for reading this and being here with me. I wish you peace and freedom from suffering <3
Right now working on dissolving my heroin/fentanyl. Gonna take it rectally woo hoo!
Also gonna take metaclopromide 30mg and then 300mg oxycodone by mouth. Been fasting for ~9hrs
Got two "bundles" of fenty/heroin. Hoping/praying it is all enough.
I wish you luck and peace in whatever comes after tonight. Mine and my gf planned on CTB this way together. I feel like 2 buns is def enough. May your suffering be gone and may the sun rise in a new life, or may the sun never rise for you again should you do it.
 
  • Like
Reactions: wehadsomanyplans2
wehadsomanyplans2

wehadsomanyplans2

Goddamnit I tried!
Jul 19, 2024
7
Took 30mg metaclopromide antiemetic and waiting 40min to take oxy and F/H
I wish you luck and peace in whatever comes after tonight. Mine and my gf planned on CTB this way together. I feel like 2 buns is def enough. May your suffering be gone and may the sun rise in a new life, or may the sun never rise for you again should you do it.
Thank you for that <3. Good to know 2buns should do it. I wish you peace and freedom from suffering in whatever you end up doing!

Now I'm waiting...10min down, 30 to go till I take the real stuff. Im indulging in Salsa music and tequila and gabapentin, so my anxiety level is not high...thank god. I feel ready & determined.
Here I go! Taking the oxys. Wish me luck.
I took all the stuff. 300mg oxy by mouth, 2 bundles of F/H by butt. I might have messed up and put toi much liquid in, but we'll see.
Discomfort in the butt, feel like I need to take a dump. But its okay.
 
Last edited:
opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod
Jun 2, 2024
2,068
Still here OP?
 
  • Like
Reactions: Aprilfarewell4
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,399
I hope that you find freedom from suffering as well, best wishes.
 
  • Like
Reactions: wehadsomanyplans2 and Aprilfarewell4
Zebulon

Zebulon

The loneliness is killing me
Jul 30, 2023
123
I wish you the best of luck. Hopefully one day I can have your strength
 
  • Like
Reactions: Aprilfarewell4
chobonzi

chobonzi

heartbroken
Apr 13, 2024
43
Any news on if it worked?
 
  • Like
Reactions: Aprilfarewell4
Lostsoul333

Lostsoul333

Member
Dec 5, 2019
22
Any news from OP? I want to go this route as well. I want to use pure heroin.
 
  • Like
Reactions: wehadsomanyplans2
J

J&L383

Enlightened
Jul 18, 2023
1,110
Would love to get heroin. ☹️. Or "aged" opium - old school.
 
wehadsomanyplans2

wehadsomanyplans2

Goddamnit I tried!
Jul 19, 2024
7
Thank you for the kind words. I came close but I missed the damn bus and instead spent a week in ICU and two more at psych ward, just got released and I suppose I'm back on the recovery wagon for a while. Thankfully not walking away with any intense disability and family has been very kind. Wishing you all luck out there for whatever path you choose.
 
  • Like
Reactions: LondonVillie and herenomore

Similar threads

leloyon
Replies
23
Views
791
Offtopic
leloyon
leloyon
s00ngone
Replies
1
Views
606
Suicide Discussion
getoutgirl
getoutgirl
supergold#2
Replies
5
Views
1K
Suicide Discussion
SchrodingerIsDed
SchrodingerIsDed
Caribbean Sky
Replies
29
Views
3K
Suicide Discussion
Caribbean Sky
Caribbean Sky