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_Minsk

_Minsk

death: the cure for life
Dec 9, 2019
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magikalangelmimi

magikalangelmimi

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Jul 5, 2022
23
7am-3/4pm
though, it changes randomly but this is the timeframe i've constantly found myself feeling suicidal
if that's what this was meaning
 
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Shivali

Mage
Jun 9, 2022
560
In the morning when I open my eyes
 
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Message In A Bottle

Message In A Bottle

I don’t need light. Please give me water
Apr 1, 2022
386
The dark thoughts always come out at night
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,583
I never want to exist and I am always wishing that I was gone. Being alive just brings me pain so it is difficult to say when I feel the most suicidal as I always feel terrible. I would probably say that I feel the worst upon waking up. To me it is so horrible to realise that I am still here and that I did not die in my sleep and that I have another day of existing ahead. I look forward to the day where I will never wake again.
 
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Trezzohno

Trezzohno

Suffering from a bad case of being alive :/
May 9, 2022
52
it was mostly nighttime but now its a full day thing
 
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Hurt

Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
904
Morning is the worst. During day I want to kill myself every hour. At night I feel suicidal too but less suicidal than during day.
 
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ewigeruhe

ewigeruhe

Student
Jun 26, 2022
112
Sad in the morning when i open my eyes yet again and from then on it accumulates until i get drunk in the evening simmering slowly in my self pity.
 
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hellispink

hellispink

poisonous
May 26, 2022
1,234
Morning when I wake up, and nighttime when I have to close my eyes for sleeping. It is heartbreaking and exhausting to see myself again.
 
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fastFWD

fastFWD

running out of time...
Feb 12, 2019
158
yeah pretty much there is a very small window of a few minutes after i wake up where i feel somewhat ok and then reality hits me like a ton of bricks...
 
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Hercules

Hercules

Arcanist
Jan 31, 2021
408
I feel suicidal all the time. The only break I get is when I'm sleeping.
 
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MindFog

MindFog

:Professional Hypocrite:
Nov 19, 2020
732
My sleep schedule's messed up so probably 1-3 am.. It's the only time I can be truly alone anyway...

It's a bit weird to feel so comfortable with feeling miserable but I guess it's just because it's familiar.

I cannot sleep properly though..
 
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anxious_depressive

I'm in despair
Dec 21, 2021
241
Mostly in the morning and afternoon.
 
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outrider567

Illuminated
Apr 5, 2022
3,002
24 hours
 
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picklemick

Specialist
Jun 28, 2022
320
I'm at a stage of depression where I don't really even leave my bedroom with the blinds drawn. So don't even Really notice time of day
 
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KiraLittleOwl

Lost in transition
Jan 25, 2019
1,082
All the time recently
 
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HoneyandGlass

Student
Jun 22, 2022
131
Later evening for me when life around quietens down and my thoughts just get louder.
 
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BasqueClown

BasqueClown

Zirkua ata heriotza
Jun 9, 2022
121
Between 1 pm and 3 pm
Perhaps it's my brain who always remember that in that hour I had my attempt, and feel extremely exhausted and suicidal in those hours, I don't know why
 
Toonloon

Toonloon

Experienced
Nov 17, 2020
253
everytime I breathe.
 
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GelatinaRouse

Member
Jun 28, 2022
27
1 time a week... it only happens and it is due to some strong emotion or a wandering of thoughts
 
Shu

Shu

As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
2,487
All day long but MAINLY as soon as I wake up.
 
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Rogue

Member
Mar 10, 2022
29
Everyday when I wake up and see my reflection in the mirror. I'm like, really your still here!!??!! 🙄
 
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Flying Away

A listening ear is better than suffering in silenc
Nov 20, 2021
393
It's constant. All nagging away at me. Only time it departs is if one particular person texts me.
 
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Hurt

Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
904
Morning is the worst. Another day ahead and I become too suicidal.
 
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depressedcanuck

New Member
Jul 4, 2022
4
For me its an all day thing. I do wake-up frequently during the night and then your mind starts wandering down the path.
 
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Ligottian

Enlightened
Dec 19, 2021
1,279
For me its an all day thing. I do wake-up frequently during the night and then your mind starts wandering down the path.
When I can't get to sleep, or wake up after a bad dream, my ruminations about all the bad stuff, real and possible, go into overdrive.
 

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