Argued with Parents

[Chockles]

I've just had yet another argument with my mum she accuses me of shouting at her all the time yet I'm so physically disabled in agony, bed ridden & no one can help me.

I lashed out my mobile phone in my hand hit my dad on the chin, drew blood none of this was deliberate. I just can't cilope still being alive with so much nerve damage, pain & lack of sleep for 9 months & my parents love me but can't cope with my need to die. Mum tells me off for shouting at her, that just makes me more anxious as the last thing I want to be is a burden to them.

Now they've locked me in. Not that I can walk anyway & they've gone out to escape I guess in the car & I've just swallowed 30 slow release oxy 30mg & a pile of lorazepam. I know they won't kill me I wish they would. I am so upset I have done this to them. I love my parents i just can't cope with my life & hope it will end by end Oct when I hope to acquire N.

 

[BeautifulMosaics]

Your situation is so stressful and painful, I'm sorry you're going through this. It's always hard when it feels like the people we love seem to temporarily not be on our side (even though we know ultimately they love us) after an argument.

However, I'm glad you know your parents love you - you deserve to feel loved.

I've read through your post history and you're so strong for everything you're enduring. One day you will be at peace enveloped in a feeling of blissful love that you would've absolutely earned Chockles

I'm sorry you're in pain. I wish there was something that could be done.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are suffering so much. Life is just so cruel and unfair. It is understandable how you feel as we are all human and there is only so much we can endure. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.