Are you lonely?

[Roadkill]

I am very lonely ever since my mother died in March 2017... I haven't gotten over her death and never will... I have some so called "friends", but I still feel very alone...it's gotten worse since I am getting older(57)... I just wish I would die and hopefully be reunited with my mother

 

[Mr. Hang Man]

My father's birthday was yesterday, it's the first birthday where I wasent able to celebrate with him. He died back in September due to a stroke, I never recovered and my life progressively got worse from there. I don't have friends either but theres a major age gap between the two of us, I'm 18. Hopefully we can reunite with our deceased family members, but as of now we can only wonder what our lives would of been if they stayed with us on this planet. We all have a expiration date and they met theres just like we're soon going to meet ours. I hope for the best for everyone on here, for some it's just not meant to be.

 

[DrownedOctopus]

I'm sorry for your loss and to hear you're having a difficult time coping with it. It must be very hard losing a parent, regardless of age or reason, so I can see why it affected you so gravely. It really does stick with you forever, even if you learn to live on with it.
As for me..Yes and no.
I have friends, I have someone I can talk to and openly discuss anything including ctb with, I have people if I need them.
But very often I find that my anxiety gets so bad I can't ever explain I need to hang out or vent and talk to someone. Most of the time I don't even want to, though. It very very rarely happens, usually only a few days after when I'm feeling more okay and just need to get out of my head for a short while.
I isolate myself, and sometimes it's hard if I want to talk to someone. Even if it's just to talk about anything as a distraction. I just can't get myself to, no matter what I do.

 

[Midnight]

I'm sorry for your loss.

Yes. I have coworkers,some "friends" my brother and mother but yeah i'm lonely all the time even though i'm way passed the point of wanting a relationship. Sometimes i meet girls and just being next to them is comforting but i won't discuss my issue's with them even though i'm frequently asked.

I'm lonely in the way that i'm alone in my suffering/feelings/wanting a way out. I know everyone here is very supportive and many of us are alike but still it's not enough you know? My head is tormenting me day in day out. Even good days are cursed days.

 

[Funkbunny]

I am very lonely ever since my mother died in March 2017... I haven't gotten over her death and never will... I have some so called "friends", but I still feel very alone...it's gotten worse since I am getting older(57)... I just wish I would die and hopefully be reunited with my mother

Your post hit me. I lost my dad 3 years ago, I'm caring for my mum and she's palliative. I'm so so sorry for your loss. I watch a little more of mum dissappear every day and it's soul destroying. When she goes, I follow. The warmest of virtual hugs to you.

 

[Roadkill]

Your post hit me. I lost my dad 3 years ago, I'm caring for my mum and she's palliative. I'm so so sorry for your loss. I watch a little more of mum dissappear every day and it's soul destroying. When she goes, I follow. The warmest of virtual hugs to you.

thanks a lot... and I'm also sorry for your loss...

 

[bluesleep]

I'm sorry, OP. I'm very lonely too. I only have my mother (dad died and sister killed herself both the same year) and she's crazy so she's more of a burden than a companion.

 

[Marawa]

Not exactly lonely but still mourning the Grandmother who raised me. I unfortunately don't believe we'll ever be reunited. I'm hoping death is just peace. nothingness

 

[Deltrus]

I seem to be fairly immune to loneliness. I haven't had the desire to have friends or socialize since highschool, I'm 26 now. I'm also asexual. Occasionally I'l talk to my parents but not much.

 

[CoolGuy9]

No friends so yep. Live sucks.

 

[Santiago]

I have been lonely ever since I was 10 and if we don't count family then I have been lonely all my life.
And if somehow I start to form a healthy relationship with somebody then I just push them back away because I am so used to being lonely.

 

[yami9292]

Oh for sure, when I isolated myself for a year, before that I never really known loneliness but then when I didn't have anybody to talk to and no one to connect with I knew that awful feeling. Damn its the worst feeling ever, just feels like somethings missing in a way. Now I don't have any friends in person just thankfully online friends which I only made this year too.

 

[DeepMind]

I'm not lonely, I wish I was. This would make things a lot easier.

 

[silentsinger]

I'm so sorry to hear this. Loneliness doesn't just happen, a series of circumstances lead us there don't they? I totally sympathise in terms of missing your Mother.

It takes a lot of courage in my opinion to talk about loneliness. It is hard thing to open up about. You are strong. I'm very sorry about your Mother. I'll be thinking of you.

 

[Kyrok]

I've been lonely. I like to recommend volunteer work. I've made a couple friends that way.

 

[Sirroscoe]

I've been morbidly depressed as a result of my loneliness and inability to form healthy, lasting relationships for over a decade now and I'm in my early 20s. The modern world is a cruel one.

 

[dandan]

yup, im lonely,

I've had relationships like two years ago... with a cute girl... my main motivation was sex

last year, with another pretty girl... sex was my main motivation too.

I did wanted to had some good sex experiences before ctb

lonely? yes, because I want to .... I push people away....

 

[Psilo]

Im lonely in the sense I have no gf, nor friends. It fucks me up. I have family, but I feel Im still alone.

 

[Istanbulite]

I'm alone but not lonely

 

[Umbrella Weather]

I feel like there is being alone... and then there is being alone with no one else to know that you are alone. That just feels awful... And I belong to that camp.

That is a lot of us, maybe. I'll never know.

Though there is a thing I think about during these times, from the band Rites of Spring's song 'Nudes':

I want to talk
Like I'm talking to myself

 

[slushy]

Yes

 

[Of The Universe]

Yes.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Yes

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not really feel lonely, I would personally rather stay away from people, I need my own space from others. People can be very tiring. I live a very empty existence, in a way it is like I have already died but I am still breathing.