I've written one before but I ripped it up cause I don't think I want to die but life lately really sucks. Every time I tried, I just end up balling my eyes out cause deep down inside I don't actually want to. I just feel like this world just tears me apart so much and it bothers me. I know I'm not the only one but it is so difficult to fight through it some days. Currently trying to recover from thinking this way but it has not been easy.
I'll probably just text my best friend, tell him to never kill himself (he really doesn't have it that bad), and tell him to watch the show he refuses to watch. I figure if it's my last words he has to do it.
SunnySideSummer
New Member
- Oct 2, 2025
- 3
I'd do it just because it's a kind of principe to me, they take it as they want but i just tell my lasts things i want to try to be the most clear possible
I planned to buy a lil carnet a lil Book and write a kind of autobiographie, maybe nobody will read it in my peoples but just it being there its enough to me
I don't know if i will ctb i had considered it a at some points tho ,i gotta write m'y stuff in case so it's already done
I planned to buy a lil carnet a lil Book and write a kind of autobiographie, maybe nobody will read it in my peoples but just it being there its enough to me
I don't know if i will ctb i had considered it a at some points tho ,i gotta write m'y stuff in case so it's already done
I doubt it. Words and long explanations haven't changed much for me in this life. I've tried to be understood for decades, without success. I don't see how words could make much difference in death. I'm not going to bother with them.
More than that. I've written one note that was fairly composed. Grammatically easy to read, is more of a story, admitting some things that I could never say in person. I've written a second note that is much less composed and more of a list, rather than story like the first one. Still adding to it. I've also written a bunch of voice notes that I plan to record and leave on flashdrives for various friends and family that my mom will mail or give to the proper recipients in person. There's just too much emotion that wouldn't be able to convey over writing. Going to put it all in a box that will be found next to my body someday.
lotus11
Specialist
- May 18, 2019
- 365
No, absolutely not. People are so full of bullshit let them think whatever they want to think and about who I was and have a stupid little funeral talking about who they think I was and pur 'great' relationships...Total waste of their money but whatever ill be dead. Nothing I can say in words will be worth writing. However I did write a draft of one several years ago when I was obviously having a moment, its still on my documents in draft form but I have to say its pretty good actually, even though it is years later I very much feel the same way and it does help me to see how I feel exactly the same and nothing had changed. Perhaps I should finish it and post it here at least. But no finally, I will not be leaving any note.
