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Hope:-)

Enlightened
Jul 3, 2022
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I have been viciously scapegoated by my family. I suffered medication induced mania and psychosis which devastated my life and all they do is blame me for it. I find it heartbreaking.Anyone else in a similar position?
 
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Hiraeth Grimoire

Hiraeth Grimoire

Longing to answer the call of the Void
May 21, 2022
154
yes, to an extent. I can't do anything because of crippling mental illnesses and autism, but like usual, none of my family understands and wants me to work and be "out in society." So I am going to off myself before going homeless and nevermore will I be anyone else's burden. Never signed up to be born, and what idiot would have?
 
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HateMyPointlessLife

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Dec 31, 2021
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I've been the constant scapegoat for my family as far back as I can remember. I have a horrible guilt complex and anxiety and stress problems because of it. I highly suspect my mother is a covert narcissist, and my father constantly enables her. Its so mentally and physically draining to be blamed for everything, even things that other people in your family do, or things you cannot help. And have them not care how it affects you, or ever be able to take any responsibility for their own actions. Its made me want to ctb for decades now. And I can't take it anymore. So hopefully I will be successful and ctb soon, so I don't have to deal with it anymore.
 
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theboy

Illuminated
Jul 15, 2022
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On the contrary. What makes me feel more guilty about making the CTB decision...
 
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hellispink

hellispink

poisonous
May 26, 2022
1,234
My family is absolutely horrendous. They have hurt me so much. They caused my pain but I am not leaving to do them a favor, I will leave for myself my own dignity.
 
Obliviate

Obliviate

Abandon All Hope
Aug 13, 2022
1,011
Same, I've been the scapegoat for my abusive family since I was born, I've stood up for myself but now it's like the economy and people are so bad that you have to rely on them financially and can't escape them ever really.
 
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Enlightened
Jul 3, 2022
1,120
I can't really take their scapegoating anymore. I get blamed for the reaction to medication I had even though some of them have experienced the same thing- when they experienced it they put it down to the medication but when I experienced it they put it down to just 'how I am.' I'm now being tied to them financially or being threatened with financial ruin. I will be glad when it's all over. :-/
 
Hangnail

Hangnail

Member
Jul 14, 2022
85
Yeah they're one part of the reason, but not the main or total.
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,592
Yeah, I've got family issues motivating me to want to ctb. The problem is I have no family.
 
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Hurt

Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
904
Yes. In my case. It partially contributes to my ctb thoughts.
 
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tofargone

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Oct 13, 2022
12
my whole family hates me they throw away a dinner if I just breath near it
 
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toasterbath

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Jun 26, 2022
254
100% if I didn't face all the trauma I did, I feel like I would be mentally healthy and able to make something of myself. Too late now and Im still trapped.
 
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