I’vehadenough
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- Sep 15, 2018
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How do you deal with it?every day.
How do you deal with it?Yes.
I used to be able to with exercise, therapy and medication. Now I'm too disabled for physical activity and meds don't work. That's why I'm here...How do you deal with it?
Yeah. I panick everyday. What's keeping you from ctb?I used to be able to with exercise, therapy and medication. Now I'm too disabled for physical activity and meds don't work. That's why I'm here...
Is it so terrifying that you want to crawl out of your skin?It used to come and go...deal with it more often now
Lack of reliable method that is accessible/doable for me. Fear of failure. I desperately want out but I'm too frozen with fear (not of death but all things that could go wrong) to move forwardYeah. I panick everyday. What's keeping you from ctb?
That's true. Are you afraid of an afterlife?Lack of reliable method that is accessible/doable for me. Fear of failure. I desperately want out but I'm too frozen with fear (not of death but all things that could go wrong) to move forward
No. I don't believe in it. I have no fear of death. Its life that terrifies me.That's true. Are you afraid of an afterlife?
I used to bodybuild which took care of it but I had a health related injury that took that away. I cope with alcohol but I became an alcoholic unfortunately so Ive had to cut back. Other than that there isn't really anything I can do for it personally.How do you deal with it?
You lose your fear once you die whereas living with fear is permanent and lasts a lifetime.No. I don't believe in it. I have no fear of death. Its life that terrifies me.
Yeah, I have no options either. We are stuckI used to bodybuild which took care of it but I had a health related injury that took that away. I cope with alcohol but I became an alcoholic unfortunately so Ive had to cut back. Other than that there isn't really anything I can do for it personally.
Does it give you anxiety staying inside too and not being able to do anything?I have agoraphobia and I go out as little as possible. The panic is debilitating . I fucking hate it.
That's very true. What's stopping you from ctb?You lose your fear once you die whereas living with fear is permanent and lasts a lifetime.
Not constant but I hen it comes it's tge worst feeling and I agree with you statement mate so true alcohol clouds itSomething drugs can't fix
It is comfortingDoes it give you anxiety staying inside too and not being able to do anything?
Honestly I don't know at this point. I question why I haven't done it everyday. In all reality it's a combination of a lot of things and that I'm just making excuses to atleast try not to feel so down all the time. Trust me I want to die so bad but my biology and laziness just makes it feel like I'm on autopilot. It's just so hard to explain.That's very true. What's stopping you from ctb?
Me tooYes, I feel like I'm constantly drowning in the middle of an ocean.
It is scary to ctb, not an easy taskHonestly I don't know at this point. I question why I haven't done it everyday. In all reality it's a combination of a lot of things and that I'm just making excuses to atleast try not to feel so down all the time. Trust me I want to die so bad but my biology and laziness just makes it feel like I'm on autopilot. It's just so hard to explain.
You're lucky that you can sleep a lotI have agoraphobia, but I'm generally scared of what feels like everything though. I try and cope with it by sleeping and self-harming but it's only temporary relief. I feel like I'm past the point where anything can truly fix it, I've tried various medications and therapy, etc but I always feel the same. Just mentally exhausted and have this constant fatigue and existential dread.