• Hey Guest,

    We wanted to share a quick update with the community.

    Our public expense ledger is now live, allowing anyone to see how donations are used to support the ongoing operation of the site.

    👉 View the ledger here

    Over the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.

    If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC):
    Ethereum (ETH):
    Monero (XMR):
lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

Пиздюк
Jun 11, 2026
153
I mean u know, forget like everything or almost everything at least, I wish there was a drug for it. I guess I have good memories, but the thing is I don't find comfort in them, not anymore. All the ppl who meant a lot to me have left, mby for good reasons idk, and I have good, fond memories of them, but all they do is bring me pain, bcs what once was is no more and nobody's coming back. Idk, mby I'm just too sensible and that's just how those things go, but what's the point, I don't get it rlly.
Sometimes it feels like I'm drowning in memories, like they're the only thing left, I'd prefer to erase them, well prob not all but most of them.
Anyone else feel similar?
 
ZEROEDOUT

ZEROEDOUT

Member
Sep 25, 2025
7
Yes. Although I have serious Rumination OCD so part of the "routine" is being stuck in my own head about things of that sort.
But also, personally, I interpret a lot of the worst of things as a direct punishment and not remembering would mean the "lesson" is lost.

For awhile I was partial to spiritual reincarnation. Are you posing this as wanting a do-over/fresh start, or wanting to be rid of burden of it all.
 

Similar threads

lastappleonearth
Replies
30
Views
557
Suicide Discussion
lastappleonearth
lastappleonearth
slowlydying2mrrw
Replies
13
Views
412
Suicide Discussion
ugulamugula
ugulamugula
notthatclever
Replies
7
Views
144
Suicide Discussion
laceydreams
laceydreams
burninghill
Replies
5
Views
114
Suicide Discussion
CrawlingInMySkin
CrawlingInMySkin