anyone else wants his/her death to seem an accident?

[nopointofliving]

Suicide isn't acceptable in my place. People and family will curse me knowing I committed suicide, yes it doesn't matter after my death. However, it will be hard time for my family. Anyone else wants his death to seem an accident not a suicide?

 

[JustAMatterOfTime]

Yes wouldn't that be lovely. Doubt it will happen to me though, I have a history with all this so even if it looked like an accident I am sure there would be doubts.

 

[StateOfMind]

No, I want it to look like murder because that's what is. They are forcing me into suicide.
No one in their right mind would put up with the bullshit I have been through / going through.

 

[insanedoomer]

maybe yr living in a religious shitty country like me , but as a suicidal person m selfish who cares when its done .

 

[FuneralCry]

I would rather have my death ruled as accidental rather than suicide, probably just because it would be less traumatic for those left behind because of the stigma attached to ctb. For me its also the thought of going through with the self inflicted death, as it requires courage and can go wrong, so I would rather have an accident happen.

 

[Cant go back]

Yes I certainly do. But part of me wants people to know it's suicide so they know I was hurting to begin with. That sounds horrible... I'm sorry.

 

[xrafinha]

Yesterday I was in a car in the passager seat while we were going on the road and all I could think about is how nice it would be to have an accident and die right there at that time...

 

[Cant go back]

Yesterday I was in a car in the passager seat while we were going on the road and all I could think about is how nice it would be to have an accident and die right there at that time...

I think that while I'm driving sometimes.

"All I need to do is turn into this big rig head on and it will all be over"

 

[wellherewego]

Yes this would be great but unfortunately I think it would be pretty damn hard to pull off

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I would prefer to die in an accident, by natural causes or at someone else's hand so SI does not kick in.

 

[FuneralCry]

I would rather have my death ruled as accidental rather than suicide, probably just because it would be less traumatic for those left behind because of the stigma attached to ctb. For me its also the thought of going through with the self inflicted death, as it requires courage and can go wrong, so I would rather have an accident happen.

I do not even know what I was thinking of writing this a year ago, I now want to die from suicide and that is what I want others to think that I died of, but I guess it does not matter what they think as I will not be alive at that point. I guess dying in an accident would mean that I would not have to go through the ctb process, as I am trapped in this world as ctb is so difficult.

 

[NobodyKnowsMe]

I'd want my death to look like an accident or due to natural causes primarily because, for some really unknown dumb reason, some part of me still cares what all these people around me think of me . If my death is known as suicide then all those people will think bad of me. They'll know that I really am that pathetic weak coward that my mother said I was when I took all those pills as a teenager. While I no longer give a crap what my mother things, I don't want my husband and children to think that of me.

 

[Deathinminutes]

I'd love it if I could make my death look accidental. Just for the sake of friends and my mom. Thoughts of them hurting more than needed is upsetting. Which is one of the few times I feel anything anymore. Idek how I ended up so numb. I was never good at life. I feel like I don't matter. Idk how to shake that feeling. I suppose that's mental illness at its finest example? Sometimes I pray to God to just take me. Really hope my attempt at ctb goes smooth.

 

[FogFilledLife]

No. I even fantasize about writing 'Did I do something right?' or 'Did I do good?' in my own blood. Highly impractical though.